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fifty four

I was tired, so tired, but Anne was about to tell me about Harry. She was about to let me uncover the Harry before me, and I couldn't miss that by falling asleep.

"Caly, are you sure you want to know?" Anne asks. I'm sure of this.

"Yes." I want to know everything about Harry, even the bad things.

"Promise me that it won't change how you feel about him. You're the best thing that's happened to him and he nor I can lose you," Anne looks at me with concern.

"I would never change how I feel about him. I'm never leaving him," I say with confidence. I don't know what about Anne makes me so confident, but I like it.

Anne sighs and starts the story, "When Harry was a young boy, he started to hang out with the wrong people, but of course I didn't know that at the time. Harry started to go to parties and get knackered. Sometimes he would even do drugs. He wouldn't come home some nights. I think he would just sleep at some girls house honestly, but I'm not sure. That's another thing, he slept with so many girls. When I asked him about it, he said it "didn't mean anything." Three or four years ago, he got involved in bad things. I'm pretty sure it was a gang, but Harry never told me about it. Harry started to deal drugs and he came home either high or drunk every night, and one night I just got done with it. I told him to get out and to not come back until he cleans his act up. And that's just what he did." Anne's eyes are glossy and she's looking down at her feet. I can tell this is a hard topic for her to talk about.

"I'm so sorry, Anne. I didn't know." 

"It's okay now. He has you." She said looking into my browns. She has the most beautiful eyes, just like Harry.

"I admire how strong you are, Anne. You dealt with all of that and you are here talking about it with someone you just met," I chuckle. I wish I could be like Anne.

"You aren't someone I just met. You're the girl my son loves," Anne says putting her hand on mine.

Now my eyes are glossy. Hearing Anne say these words about me make me feel loved. I used to hate the idea of love, but now it's my favorite emotion and I never want to live without it.

Anne must have noticed my eyes and said, "Love, don't cry. I-I didn't mean to make you cry-" I cut her off my wrapping my hands around her.

She immediately hugged back. I softly cried onto her shoulder. This is not how I expected tonight to go. I thought I was going to meet Anne, have dinner, then go to sleep with Harry and worry about if Anne liked me or not. Never in a million years would I think I would have a heart-to-heart with Anne and start crying on her shoulder.

I rubbed my tears away and broke the hug, "I'm sorry. It's just that hearing you say that stuff about me, I-I just want to stay here with Harry forever and-"

"Don't apologize, love," She says. Maybe everyone in England uses the word 'love.' I don't really understand why.

"I never thought my life would be like this because of my past. I really don't want to get into detail, but I don't think I would have ever been able to live again if it weren't for Harry," I say wiping the tears from my face.

"I don't think he would've been able to live if it weren't for you either," Anne says looking straight into my browns.

That made me think. Does Harry need me as much as I need him? I think he does. I think that we both helped each other and we are the right person for the other. I pray that we always stay together because I don't think I could even live without him. I can't even think about it without wanting to cry.

"Thank you for this, Anne." She honestly amazes me in every way.

"Don't thank me, dear. You are family now. I'd do anything for you," she said with a soft smile. This woman always knows what to say, and I only met her today.

She noticed the time and says that I must be super tired, which is correct. I hug Anne goodnight and thank her one last time. I find the room that Harry is in, which takes a while considering the house is huge, and put my pajamas on.

As I get in the bed, Harry's eyes flutter, but I make sure he doesn't wake up. He needs all the sleep he can get.

I pull the covers over me and try to fall asleep. Just as sleep is taking over me, I hear Harry's voice, "Caly?" He reaches his arms out, but he can't seem to find my body since he's not facing me.

"I'm right here, Harry," I say in the raspiness of my tired voice. Harry immediately turns around and grabs my body. He moves me so that my head is on his chest and both of his arms are wrapped around me. This is my favorite way to fall asleep at night.

After a minute or two, Harry speaks up again, "When I couldn't find you, I thought you had left me." His words hit me hard, but I tried not to show it. I wanted to kiss him and tell him that I love him, but instead my response was only five words. Five words that mean the world not only to him, but to myself.

"I would never leave you."

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*ok goodbye i'm in love with caly and harry. they are the cutest people on the planet . ok whatever. 

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