pure (h.s.)

sixty eight

One week. One week without Caly. One week without hearing her voice. One week without waking up to her in the morning. One week.

I've wanted to break and call all week. I need to hear her beautiful voice. I need to be with her again.

After Louis came earlier, I think I need to call her and soon. I always knew I was going to call her, I just needed space. I need to think of what she did. Even just imagining someone else lips on hers makes me shutter. It's disgusting. I never want that to happen again. She's mine, no one else's.

I love her so much and I'm not going to waste what we have. I'm not just going to give it up because of one mistake, but she needs to know that she cannot kiss Louis whenever she feels like it.

Does she have feelings for Louis? She says she loves me, so maybe she doesn't. Hopefully she doesn't. I want her to be all mine not Louis's.

The past week has been awful for me. I haven't wanted to eat, get out of bed, or even move. I wonder if Caly is feeling the same way. Does she care? Of course she cares. What am I even thinking?

This week has brought up questions and doubts. These questions that are popping in my head are torturing me and they won't get out.

I wonder why she hasn't texted me. She probably wants to give me space. If I was in her place, I wouldn't be able to not text her. It's taken everything out of me to not call her.

Niall told me that Caly is as bad as me right now, which means she still loves me as much as I love her.

I called my mum and asked her about what to do. She said I cannot give up on Caly because without her I can't live, and she's right. Caly is my life. She's how I live. I don't know what I would do without her.

Gemma told me the same, but with slightly different words. She said I'd be downright stupid to leave Caly. She's the one who basically brought me out of my funk. Gemma said I owe her my life, which I kind of do.

Niall and Madison came to comfort me sometimes. They tried to make me eat, but I didn't want to. It just doesn't feel right.

ring ring* It's Niall.

"Hey, Harry. You feel like going to eat?" Niall says. If i'm being honest, not really.

"Do I have to?" I ask.

"I'm not saying you have to, but you have to." Ugh typical Niall.

"Fine. Pick me up in 5."

"Perfect. I'll see you then."

I hang up the phone and sigh. Why did I say yes again? Noticing that I shouldn't walk
out of the apartment with these clothes, I put on fresh clothes that don't stink.

Niall shows up at my door. "Ugh, let's get this over with," I say to myself.

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I'm back at my apartment with Madison. It's good to have company. We were sitting on the couch talking about who knows what. This is the first time I have completely forgotten about Harry since New Years.

I got up to get my computer to search up something Madison and I were talking about. I didn't feel my legs become weak or brain shutting off. All I felt was my body hit the floor.

I heard Madison scream my name and saw her over my head looking into my eyes.

And that's all I saw before it went black.

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"Harry, come on!" Niall said.

"I'm not giving you my phone to talk to my mom and sister!" I said.

"We were close. Let me talk to them!" Niall said laughing. Ugh.

"Fine. Here." I pulled up my mom's number on my phone and gave it to Niall.

"Yes!" Niall took the phone from my hand and was about to press the call button. Right then, there was an incoming call. He was so quick to answer it.

"Hey baby." He must be talking to Madison. Why did she call me?

He hands the phone over to me, "it's for you," he said. I put the phone up to my ear and listen to what Madison has to say.

"Hey, Madison. What's up?" I say trying to sound nonchalant.

"Harry," she said sounding panicked. Her breaking was heavy and her voice was shaky.

"What's wrong? What's happening?" I ask.

"Look, I know you and Caly aren't in a good place right now but..." She trails off.

"What is it, Madison! Tell me!" I yell to her. Everyone in the restaurant looked at me, but I didn't care. Something was wrong with Caly.

"She passed out and hit her head pretty hard on the ground. I... Harry, I don't know what to do," She starts crying.

That was all it took to break me.

"Caly is... what?" I'm at a loss for words.

"Please help. I'm at her apartment," was the last words I heard before she ended the call.

It didn't take me but a second to hop out of my seat, grab Niall, and get in the car. I know I shouldn't be speeding, but I need to get to Caly as fast as possible. My mind is shut off and the only thing running in it is Caly.

I make it to her apartment in record time and pound on the door. Madison opens it up leads me towards Caly. Tears swell in my eyes.

"I'm sorry, baby. I should have called you." I said as a tear slipped out from my eye and landed on Caly's shirt.

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**FRICK MAN CALY WHAT NO the end got to me i'm crying bye

i'm sad what the hell caly better be okay.

i hopes y'all liked harry's pov. you don't get a bunch of those so savor it !!!!!!!

ok bye y'all vote and comment !!

-c