Unspoken Phrases

Lost Cause

I know my smile may be deceiving but I'm screaming in pain without a sound,

I should be admitted to a hospital with my hands and my legs bound,

I'm a lost soul but that doesn't mean I need to be found,

My thoughts are like a sea of venom and I think I'm about to drown.

I feel like I'm a devil with a halo or an angel with my wings clipped,

I never auditioned for this part but I can't seem to get the roles flipped,

I'm toxic to anyone around me - anyone close gets their innocence stripped,

So I'm warning anyone who lets me get close that you're signing away your death slip,

I don't mean to be this evil, I'm trying to change my ways,

But it's hard when I don't have a guardian angel to tell me how to behave,

I've been praying for God's help but I think his blessing has been delayed,

But I guess it doesn't matter if it comes or not because it's too late for me to be saved.

- A.S