Unspoken Phrases

Wrong Timing

We met at a bar while I was drinking at an hour I felt the darkest,

You told me I was beautiful but I knew I was a drunken mess,

But you were smiling at me like I was some sort of goddess,

And that's when I decided that letting you in might be harmless.

You made me laugh, baby, I've never met someone so modest,

You told me if I gave you a chance than you would prove to me that I'm flawless,

You believed I was capable of love and that I wasn't so heartless,

But no matter how hard I tried, I could never be good for you like I promised,

I never cheated or lied - with you I've always been honest,

But I can't keep you waiting at home, hoping that I stumble through the darkness,

Hoping I don't drink myself to death before this bar closes,

Baby you deserve more and all I do is hurt the ones I love closest,

You found me when I was broken, when I was literally at my lowest,

A time where I believed dreaming about love was hopeless,

So baby I have to let you go even though that thought makes me the saddest,

It's nothing that you did but I just don't think I'm cut out for relationships,

I really wanted to make this work baby, believe me when I say this,

I'm just a fucking wreck walking around with a shit ton of baggage,

I hope one day we can come back together when I feel like I actually deserve happiness,

And even if you find someone new, don't wait for me baby, I wish you both the best.

- A.S