Unspoken Phrases

Drowning

There's a hole in me that I don't know how to fill,

I drink, I smoke, but all it does is maintain the thrill,

Instead of dealing with my problems, I let them rack up onto a bill,

I'd rather numb my mind then try to deal with how I feel,

Everyone watches me sit alone at the bar, wondering how this little girl got so lost,

Like I didn't want a good life, like it wasn't too high a cost,

And now its too late for me to plead at the cross,

Any hope I ever had has now been exhausted,

So now I'll keep drinking until I meet the end of my days,

People tell me to have hope but I don't think I'm worth being saved,

And I know its fucked up to be thinking this way,

But I'm a broken soul who just got lost in the waves.

- A.S