Unspoken Phrases

Renovations

There's a hole in my chest and it happens to be empty,

Every night I fuck someone new but I don't trust these passing souls to handle my heart gently,

So I'd rather fill myself up with gin to try and fill the vacancy,

Hoping one day I can relieve the weight on my shoulders and finally breathe,

But even when I have someone to sleep next to, I still feel lonely,

It takes everything in my power not to crawl back to you in my hour of need,

Since you happen to be the last place where my heart used to beat,

I won't let myself fuel your ego when you've already ruined me,

All we had was lust, no love, just booty calls at three,

Each time I keep telling myself I won't pick up but then I find us fucking to some skit on TV,

I'm tired of running in circles, waiting for you to be ready,

I won't beg baby, you won't find me on my knees,

I'm cutting you off - your place in my heart is now an empty seat,

Don't you dare try and call me, I don't need your fucking pity.

- A.S