Unspoken Phrases

Fuck Off

He asked me if I was happy,

I told him only partly,

There's days I've been better but I can't remember when that last day would be,

I'm trying to picture myself smiling but that image is too blurry,

And it doesn't help that it was a while ago and I don't have the best memory,

You see, the last time I smiled I know that we were singing in your shitty Camry,

Windows down, volume maxed - baby we were so carefree,

Somewhere between then and now we lost the spark that kept us hungry,

And when the flame went out, our relationship turned messy,

Words of love turn to hate, spitting out whatever felt deadly,

Kisses were like stab wounds, our eyes lacked sympathy,

I'll never forget how cold your voice was when you told me you no longer love me,

And now you're back a couple years later trying to tell me that you're sorry,

But you don't realize it's too late and that I'm not interested in your apology,

You hurt me so bad, I don't think I can heal without these bottles of whiskey.

- A.S