I loved him

*53*

James and I were lying on the couch binge watching our favourite series. Mitchell was upstairs playing games but he complained that he was sleepy so he probably fell asleep.

I lay with my legs on James. I was wearing my best socks while chewing on some Lays.

"You heard about Rejoice?" James asked me.
"Yup." I crunched a chip.
"What do you think?"
"Of what, James?"
"You know...the whole situation."

I moved my legs off him, rolled my eyes and sighed.

"I've moved on, James. I've moved on from that family and I'm starting my own soon. So, it's sad, yes but it has nothing to do with me."

"Even for you that's cold." said James.

I took a deep breath to take back my words.
"I wanted to go and see her."
"But..."
"My wedding planner stopped me." I said.
"Well...?"
"So, you see..."
"Yeah."
"From the bottom of my heart I hope she is okay and I wouldn't wish that kind of pain onto anyone. Not even my worst enemy."

I know what they did to me was wrong but I tried not to look at it that way.

There was a knock on James' door.
"Are you expecting anyone?" I asked.
"No. You?"
"Uh-uh. Let me go and get it."

I stood up, walked to the door and opened it.
To my surprise it was Rejoice.

"Joyce...uhm...what a lovely surprise...uhm...how did you find me? How do you know I...?"
"I went over to your house and your mother told me you'd be here." she said.

I was surprised my mother would let Rejoice come here. I hope she did it out of a good heart and not spite. I know my mother.

"Oh okay...Uhm." At this point I had no idea whether to let her in or not.
"So eh...is Mitchell here?"
"Oh, yes but he is uhm...sleeping."
There was a moment of silence before I continued
"Rejoice...I'm sorry for your loss. You didn't deserve that."
"You think? Well I should have treated you better. Now look at me."
"No no. Don't say that. It was just God's will." I said.
"He was teaching me something out of this."

There was a moment of silence. James walked up to the door.

"Anyway let me be on my way." she said when she saw James.
"Oh alright be strong , Rejoice. You have a family who loves you."
"Thanks, goodbye."

I waved goodbye as James held me from behind.

We watched Rejoice drive off.

"What did she want?" he asked me.
"Isn't it strange that I was considering walking up to her door to send my condolences yet she came to me to show remorse? Wow."
"Yeah wow. You told her Mitchell was asleep?"
"Yeah."
"Oh well, let's go back to binge watching our series. It's not like you are part of them."