I sit on the couch curled in a blanket that still smells like her watching the tv. I know she won't come back, but I really want her to. I miss her a lot, I miss her smile, her kisses, her hugs, her cuddles, her hands, her mouth, her love. Six weeks, I would've had to wait six weeks anyways but they were over, and she wanted to, and I shut it down. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry I thought you'd be asleep." She sniffs looking at me and then around at all of her surroundings. "I just wanted, I wanted to get," she pauses and I smile at her, I wanna bring her home, she needs to come back.
"You wanted to steal my blanket?" I smile walking closer towards her, I know she can see everything, she can see just how hard I am just looking at her, and she can see how much I want her back. "I love you," I smile kissing her forehead while I bring her closer, she's careful when she hugs me and she ovoids the boner at all costs but she's probably planning something bigger in her mind. I just know it, because that's what she does.
"I love you too," she cries against my shoulder, I hold her tight, tighter than ever before.
"Come home Baby girl I didn't mean it, I really didn't," I lift her and lead her into the bedroom, I lay her on the bed and smile laying on top of her. "I love you so much princess." I kiss her softly and she smiles kissing me too.
"I love you too, and I never meant to do why I did. James was a stupid idea." She sighs and I shake my head.
"It wasn't your idea babe, it was mine. And I'm sorry for what I said, I know that I hurt you." I press a kiss against her lips and it takes no longer than a few seconds for us both to be so wrapped up in the kiss that we can't do anything else.
"You, you had the right to bring that girl here last night." She mumbles. "I couldn't give you stuff that I know you needed." She pouts almost but it's not noticeable, she's very wrapped up in this kiss, and it's making my boner worse.
"I didn't need it then babe," I place my hands over her head. "But I need it, I need you right now," I beg her moving my hands to pull the both of our pants off. Mine go first and hers follow quickly after, I slowly unbutton her shirt and undo the clasp of her bra before we move to our underwear. I wasn't wearing a shirt to begin with.
"I need you too," She whispers waiting patiently without much movement. She's really just letting me take control, she wants me to.
"Mm, mm," I mumble pulling away, she'd only barely given up in waiting and was going for it. "I'm gonna do it right his time." I nod looking her up and down. She's gorgeous, she's fucking gorgeous and she's mine.
"You did it right before baby," she smiles hugging me.
"We can't do this," I shake my head and she nods. "We can however, cuddle under your favourite blanket and watch movies for hours." I look down at her and she giggles grabbing the blanket and wrapping herself in it, she's not even putting on a shirt.
"Are you gonna exclude yourself to fix your problem? Or are you just gonna leave it and hope for the best?" She giggles and I chuckle back, but I'm honestly just gonna leave it and hope for the best.
"Tomorrow," I start and she turns to me a wide smile on her face as we sit down. "Can you do me a favour and not look so fucking pretty? It hurts." I huff and she giggles going right to my boxers.
"Let me just do this for you, once?" She begs a little kissing my chest down my stomach.
"No, not yet, we're gonna stay abstinent, until, one month from now, and after one month we'll see where we are and we'll try and go as long as possible." She nods sadly almost moving out of my lap, she glued herself to my hip and smiles. "You can sit on my lap babe, you'll probably help put it down a little." I wink and she giggles. "This is still abstinence." I point so I'm sure it's clear to her.
"I'm sure if you'd just," my head shakes and she rolls her eyes. "I was here less than twenty four hours ago, this is the same as what we had before, therefore I can." I stop her and she groans.
"You can't, you really can't, I want it to work." I kiss her again. "If it gets really bad, if it isn't down by the morning it's all yours, but before eight o'clock it's still under my control."
"I'm gonna wake you, if you're sleeping at eight and this doesn't go down you're gonna get the best wake up call of your life," she nods shrugging nonchalantly.
"I look forward to it," I smile starting a movie that I don't intend to watch. "Come here, twenty hours is a long time." I pull her into my arms hugging her and laying back against one of the chairs. I decline it as much as I can and finally we're comfortable laying there, all is peaceful, and it's nice.
"Too long," She nods huffing slightly laying her head against my chest.
"If you keep moving," I groan and she giggles.
"You said this would still be considered abstinence." She challenges making me roll my eyes.
"Back when I wanted you to do this, right now I just want you to lay quietly and love me."
"I would be loving you if you'd just let me,"
"Come on babe? Let's fall asleep out here making out until we can't keep our eyes open. I'll carry you to the bedroom and we'll make this the most romantic thing ever." I smile at her.
"I do love cheesy romantic gestures."
"Then I was a good choice."
