I sit in the chair by the window and while I stare out at the beautiful little pond in the distance I start to think about my Candy. She would love the view from this window, and the room's a little small but she'd love it, all of the people here they're great and she'd love them too. My Candy would love it here I just know she would. Maybe we could start ourselves a little family and we'd find somewhere else, somewhere she likes even better. I'll give her whatever she wants, she can have anything she's wants, anything she needs, she can have anything at all for everything that she does for me. "You've got a visitor." One of the nice ladies taps my shoulder pointing towards my mom. She comes to see me often. On the days she's not here Aaliyah is, and when Aaliyah doesn't come my dad does, wen he's not here my mom is. I never get too lonely.
"Hi mom," I smile while she sits in front of me. I turn my head back to the window looking at the pond off in the distance she sits there looking at me somewhat concerned like.
"Hello Shawn." She smiles back waiting for me to say something.
"Have you talked to Candy yet?" I stay facing the window just looking at the water.
"Why? Is there something you want me to tell her?" She looks somewhat excited she wants to know desperately what I have to say.
"This is the place," I nod and my mothers eyebrows furrow. "Tell her I found our dream house."
"Oh sweetheart." She brings me against her and lays her head in mine. "Today is your anniversary." She explains calmly forcing me away from her.
"No it's not," my eyes go wide and she nods softly. "But, but I promised her I'd never miss one, and I didn't even get to wrap her present." I look at the ground. "Does that mean she's gonna come and visit?" I smile looking up. Maybe I could get one good thing out of the series of tragedies.
"She's working, and then she's gotta her home to the kids, she said happy anniversary though."
"That's not the same as her being here. I want an anniversary hug, or a kiss." God knows they're the only two things I can have right now.
"I can go see if she wants to come? Maybe she can come visit you." My mother nods at my dad look.
"I would really like to see her." I nod it's been about a month, we've been looking at different houses, I'm checking out this one and she's looking at another one. We want to move before our baby girl comes into the world. We're gonna name her Angelique, I'll call her Angel for short.
"Alright, I'll head out and see if she wants to visit." She kisses my head. My mom won't come back, she comes once and as soon as she leaves she's gone. That's it, but the company is nice for the time that I have.
"Shawn, it's quiet time now?" The nurse grabs my arm to assist me to my room.
"My wife is coming, I know she is it's our anniversary today." I beg the doctor who just keeps leading me away. "Please let me wait for her, I haven't seen her in a long time I want to see her." I beg softly.
"She'll call if she's coming to visit and I'll come and get you ok?"
...
"Did she come? Did I miss her?" I gasp shooting up in my bed. I check the time in a rush to find that it's already morning, our anniversary has already passed.
"She did come, but not to see you." The nurse sighs sitting next to me. "She left a letter she wanted us to read you and we'll read it every time you ask."
"What does it say?" I smile my heart skips a beat at the thought, I know she was probably just busy.
"Bubbles,"
I've been thinking about you all day. I'm sorry I couldn't see you, and I'm sorry that it'll be a while before I see you again. For now enjoy the ready bear and the various other gifts. I hope they help remind you of home, and how much we miss you here. Charm doesn't sleep well anymore, and Precious misses you more than you could ever know, Noah's started having night terrors and Skylar sits up by the door. I'm probably the worst though. I wait every night for you to magically appear and fill up your spot in the bed. It's hard not to have you there to cuddle, it's weird not smelling you in the pillow, it hurts knowing you're not there to keep me safe all of the time. I miss feeling protected, but most importantly I miss you. You are my bubbles and you always will be. I gave you some pictures so if you ever miss me you can look at them and think of me. Get better, I can't live without knowing you're alright. I promise I'll come and pick you up one day, we'll live at home and we'll be happy. I can't wait to be happy again. I love you bubbles, happy anniversary.
Love candy.
"Read it again," I nod at the nurse who nods back starting over. I hold the teddy bear close to my heart smelling her familiar scent embedded in the bear. It'll never run out. This is an endless supply of something familiar to me and I will work day and night to make sure I don't forget that. This smell means candy, my candy. My bittersweet Candy that can't leave me for more than ten minutes without worrying. The Candy that loves me for me, the candy that I love just as much, the candy that sent me a letter because we couldn't be together on our anniversary. She's my candy, she's my love, she will be the mother of my children, but for right now she's just my candy. My bittersweet candy.
A/N
That's the end of the book! Thank you for sticking along throughout the whole thing. It's a bit of a sad ending but it's happy too. I'm pleased with the way the book turned out and I hope everyone else is too. Let me know what you thought about it!
