"They say it's postpartum, and something else." I shrug at Geoff staring in at my baby girl who cuddles her blanket. It's the one I have with me the most often and it kinda smells like me and her mama and she really likes it, it's her favourite. "But I don't believe them," I her soft eyes gently flutter open and she blinks my way, she's not much of a crier. She cries when she's uncomfortable or hungry.
"Well they are the doctors, just claim your prescription." He shrugs sipping his drink while I kiss my baby girls bare foot, she was wearing her shoe but she didn't like it so I took them off. I'll put them back on when we leave.
"I will, but I don't think I need it." I shrug back touching my little girls small body.
"Take them anyways, it could help." He nods flagging our waiter down to get out bill. We're gonna meet Cameron and Lucy at the mall. They've been shopping all day.
"Do I concern you? Am I acting differently than usually?" He shrugs a little and I roll my eyes.
"Hello princess," I smile at her kissing her cheek. "Hello," I lift her into my arms and let her rest against me. Her little head nuzzles against my chest, I feel bad for Cameron. She hasn't held our baby girl properly once yet. And I have a business trip in a couple weeks.
"She's adorable Shawn," Geoff smiles as if he's proud of me. I'm proud of myself for making something so gorgeous. She's just my little beauty, and she always will be.
"I know," I smile using my baby voice while bouncing her a little. "I know," I kiss her head, she always wears a little hat but her head is covered in hair. "How pretty are you?" I smile kissing her little cheek. "How pretty are you darling?"
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"There's my baby girl," Cameron smiles, we've only been apart an hour which is good, we can't go much longer because she breastfeeds. She wants to bond with her too. "And my boyfriend," she smiles at me before blushing. "My fiancé." She leans up and kisses me softly before she turns back to the stroller.
"She's caused us both a lot of,"
"Happiness," she cuts me off. She knows I was gonna say something like stress, or pain. Which she really has, but not enough to make us love her any less. "Loads Of happiness and smiles, and brighter days." She nods kissing her head while I hold her in front of her.
"I haven't seen her yet," Lucy squeals when she realizes what we've been doing.
"Just, be really careful," Cameron begs. "Shawn is the only one to ever have, held her." She explains.
"We're gonna hold off on letting anyone else until Cameron has." I explain bringing her closer to me she lay her head on my chest and she calms slightly. I can feel her drool but it doesn't bother me.
"Hi," she smiles touching her hand which makes her jump a little. I kiss her little head after Cameron takes her hat away. "Can I be godmother?" She looks between the two of us.
"We haven't really talked about that have we?" She kisses my cheek. "We should talk about that, just in case."
"I guess," I shrug a little. I have no intentions of ever letting anything happen to either of us, but I guess if something really out of the ordinary does happen she should go with someone trusted.
"Come on babe, I know you don't believe in it." She sighs a little. "But I really think that we need this." I kiss her head and nod a little. "She'll always be ours, I promise." I kiss her hands and little head trying to convince myself. I just don't like the thought of it. It makes me feel like we're preparing to give her away. And I don't ever want to give her up.
