I brush my finger over the little girls face and watch her hand trail down the same path that my finger took. She's got the tiniest fingers, and the prettiest eyes, they're so pure and beautiful. Cameron almost missed it, I would've never forgiven her. But she got here and held one of our birth moms hands while she pushed her out, for us. She was so out of breath but satisfied when she saw our joy. This little girl is everything to us and we couldn't have ever asked for such a blessing. She doesn't and never could understand the extent of what she's done for us. "Look at you precious." She smiles as do I. That would make an amazing name for her, Precious. That's what she is, I'd have another chance with another baby girl and this one could love me when Skylar doesn't. This one can mend what she's broke, this one is mine and as much as Skylar will wanna brake her I won't let her. She won't be exposed to the poisonous words that her sister will feed her.
"Can I take her?" I look to Cameron who's face falls. "Please Cameron she's my only baby girl." I beg touching her head she sleeps peacefully, and she's so little that all of her clothes, all of the ones we bought her are so big. She can't reach the little feet on her onesie and she can't stick her hands out to greet us.
"I-I just thought we'd bring her home?" She smiles softly grabbing my hand. "Together." She explains at my confusion. I can't even imagine walking back into that home, it was be a disaster. I'd probably end up being slapped again.
"I didn't plan on going home," I mumble sitting down in the chair in the room we only have for a little while longer. "I can't face them, but if you wanna bring her home I'd understand." I give her a sad nod laying the sweet little thing on my chest. She's so calm, and gentile, we thought there was something wrong when she barely cried after birth. She was just all giddy and excited just like us.
"Can we bring her home? Can we be a family for her sake?" She hums taking her off of me and laying her in the car seat. She does need a stable family but we're anything but stable. We're messed up and she doesn't deserve that but we can't offer her much more.
"I can't go home Cameron, not now." I shake my head and she sighs giving a sad nod kissing my cheek.
"We love you so much Shawn, we need you back home." I lift the car seat and she hugs me the little girl shuts her pretty little eyes and let out a soft snore like sound. "I can't feel safe without you." She begs and I nod only because I promised. I promised to keep them all safe forever. They deserve at least a small sense of safety. I wanted loyalty though and they all failed to show me that.
"You're manipulative," I whisper kissing her head making her giggle. I can't hate her no matter how mad I wanna be, it hurts me to be mad at her, I love her so much. "And a little bit evil." I point while we start out of the hospital room holding our baby girl. She's gotten her shots, and every other medical precaution that might've been needed and she's very healthy.
"But?" She looks up with her big puppy dog eyes clutching my side.
"No but, that's it." I chuckle and she pouts earning a soft kiss. "I'm still mad at you, you cheated." I scold and she sighs with a soft nod against my shoulder while we finally arrive at the car.
"I'm sorry," she kisses my cheek. "About everything, she told me what happened at school." I tense at the mention and clip my baby girl into her seat assuring that she's buckled up tight enough that she'll be safe. I couldn't live with myself if she weren't.
"Will you sit in the back with her?" I turn and she nods offering me the spot first. I wanna take it but I decline because I need to assure that whoever's driving is doing it safely and the only way for me to do that is to takeover the wheel.
"Wanna talk about it?" She hums still staring at the baby I couldn't look away from either.
"No," I roll my eyes pulling out of the parking space and starting back on route towards our home. I don't want to go but she's given me reason.
"Skylar thinks we should talk about it." She begs while I continue my focus towards the road. "Why would you discipline her? Your shrink says you're not allowed, you know you shouldn't." She scolds almost and it it weren't for the fact that I'm worried about my baby I would've let her out right there.
"I didn't touch that girl, I told her to have a good day and she slapped me in front of all of her peers, all of the parents, and all of the teachers." I pull into the driveway. "But thanks for the accusation."
"She only gave my that story what else did I have to go off of?" She scoffs at my anger as if I have no right to be.
"Can I take her or not?" I keep my car running putting it in park.
"What do you mean?" She pouts as if she regrets all she's said.
"Can I take my baby girl with me or not?" I look at her and she shakes her head with a pleading look on her face. "I'll come pick her up tomorrow then." I unlock the doors pointing her away.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you angry." She begs and I shake my head pointing at the door.
"Get out," I growl and she sighs.
"Will you come tomorrow? Come see me and the kids, Noah's so worried." She begs leaning towards me.
"He'll forget by morning, let him I'm not a big part of the family anyways."
