In Search of my Dimple Girl | ongoing

1: solitary

For her, he was just another cloud but for him, she was the first rainbow - anonymous

1: solitary

"Bhaiya, I am sure the looks you inherited are because of me." Rudra raked his hand through my hair. "It looks awesome now."

"No, they are beacuse of me. I use the infamous shampoo for my hair. See those strands, smooth as a fine piece of silk!" Om voiced his opinion, his eyes filled with delight.

I gave them a small assured smile as I cupped my hands on their cheek each. They understood me giving a transient hug whose effect is always eternal. The duo are my kinetic energy, without them I am barely surviving. I kissed Rudra's hair and walked along the cascading stairs.

As the car sped and the fresh wind kissed me, a thousand unwanted memories came to my mind. It always came with the slightest touch of the air, when I ate food, the times when I look out of the window and so many more times. Nevertheless, I shrugged. I had no right to tarry my mind over some pathetic human who sure made me believe for a while about things that I shouldn't have thought in the first place, played with my soul and threw my heart at a velocity that now it refused to came back. An excuse for a fricking superwoman.

I wanted to post a pamphlet featuring her face warning the influential individuals and even the strongest one: Don't fall for the innocence in her eyes or the way her laugh warms your inside. The flamboyant face of hers is superficial which involuntarily forces the spectators with her to fall for her.

For a moment, I thought I found someone who would be a key to all my firsts.

The first time I laughed with a stranger.

The first time when I deliberately let someone pinch my cheeks.

The first time I cooked for someone who wasn't my family.

The first time I aided someone's wound.

The first time I went shopping with someone.

The first time when I danced at a ball.

The first time when I went on a date.

The first time when I rode the Ferris wheel.

The first time when someone's presence calmed me and protected me from the nightmares.

There were so many firsts that I lost count. My futile attempts to forget anything reminiscing her memory, pained me to the extreme but in these three years, I have become stronger and careful.

I caressed the screen of my phone, my thumb trailing lightly over it. Involuntarily I opened my gallery, finding it empty again. Trust me, I don't regret deleting any attachments of hers. Not even that hideous smiling face or those treacherous twinkling eyes.

×××

The familiar scent of chemicals indicating the hospital hit my nose. I juggled for a while, getting a little confused in the large maze like hospital when I finally reached before the intensive care unit.

With heavy hands, I gave a gentle push to the door twisting over the nob a while after, dragging my feet to the door. I sighed as I greeted her.

I kissed her forehead, her pale cheeks and hugged her unresponsive body to me.

I miss you so much.

I hastily hurried away from the hospital driving towards my office, the lump in my throat refusing to go away.

×××

"What the hell is this ?" I screeched at the fellow who was carrying a humongous pile of files adding more to the already raised number.

"Aren't you taught to be professional and aware of that dirt filled mouth of yours ?"

My mind still froze listening to that voice. I stiffened my back and held my head as he glared at me.

"I was just bewildered seeing the truckloads of file." I admitted slowly.

He laughed. "Well, being India's one of the most recognised and renowned business man, a few files scared the life out of you ? Impressive ? Not."

I ticked my jaw, my hands curled into fists, my face cross.

"Angry Young Man!" He threw a newspaper at me. "Freaking Bachelor!"

As I let my eyes wander over the headlines, my eyebrows furrowed. His eyes were blazing as someone had set them on fire, his posture demeaning.

"Why are you the most eligible bachelor ? Why isn't Omkara ?" His fist banged the fragile table as it pounded and thundered under his wrath. "I want the answer God damn it Shivaay. I know, you are the most happiest person listening to this piece of shit, but let me tell you," he came closer to me, his eyes boring into mine, his other hand tightening around my arm, stronger than ever as I felt weaker this time. So, this is about Om.

"All the years of pent up frustration was because you are jealous of me for your son ?" I spoke meekly, so exhausted mentally that I was scared I would pass out.

His glare intensified. "Jealous ? You are not even worth that. I spent all my life marking my heart and soul to the Oberoi Industries and then you came snatching everything freaking thing out of my hands. Just like a prince born with a silver spoon."

I looked at him, horrified, my emotions a mess as I slammed the door, its sound echoing.

×××

I littered around the remnants of small patches of grass in the ground, my knees up to my chest, the back of my hands relaxing on my chin as I gazed at the sky solitarily.

It was a dark hue of blue with a slight tinge of grey. The stars were looking blissful, at peace. The aura it possessed grew contagious as its serene atmosphere slowly started mending my broken heart.

I tried not to let the horrendous thoughts penetrate me, but trust me when I say, they were just increasing each passing second.

Maybe, just maybe if she would have been still here, holding my hand, by my side letting me know that I am not a loser or a quitter or a weak person or maybe she would have whispered that I was a man who deserved an epitome of happiness which had no zenith.

The thought made me gasp. I know I hate her from every inch of my body, but can you blame for me for being selfish, just today because I had no one to approach, no one to comfort me, no one to hug, not even my brothers. I loathe her and the things that bring a rush of memories that make bile rise in my throat from the mere mention of her name but a small voice in my heart smiles and says that sometimes its okay to be selfish.

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