gangsta - riverdale sweet pea

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her funeral was beautiful, cheryl giving a wonderful speech with her cheerleaders, honouring midge and her days in the squad.

i stayed behind after everyone had left, even mrs klump who was having firm words with sheriff keller.

i knelt down next to her, a photograph of her leaning against the gravestone. my bare knees were getting dirty, but that was the least of my worries as i placed the white roses into the jar filled with water. her grave was decorated beautifully with tonnes of different flowers laying on the ground around it.

"miss you m" i smiled, stroking the stone.

"i haven't been back to school yet. i don't want to face the day without you. they're all telling me to come back, that it will be easier to cope but... i don't know how to cope without you midge" i began to sniffle at the end.

i felt a hand rub over my shoulder soothingly and kiss my head. i turned to see sweet pea crouched down behind me.

"you good?" he almost whispered.

"no. but i will be, soon" i sighed, kissing my finger and placing it onto the gravestone over her name.

he helped me up and alice offered to drive me back to hers for a while. she knew that i needed to be away from it all and betty agreed with her. i accepted and we were soon getting into the car.

"call me if you need me okay?" sweet pea said protectively.

"i will, you go look out for fangs. he needs you more than ever" i said.

i stroked his face and pecked his lips before jumping into the car.

"i know this is a hard time for you girls, that's why i'm going to get you a take out, and you can go buy a movie or two? it won't make up for the loss but i hope it can keep you preoccupied for the time being" she smiled. i didn't feel like it but she was trying bless her, so i accepted.

"that sounds great mrs cooper, i really need it" i nodded.

"yeah thanks mom, hey ally you wanna stay over tonight?" betty asked, her happy facade not covering her sadness very well.

"yeah that would be great, i'm fed up of all them guys fussing over me i'm in need of a girly night"

i'm in need of a girly night with midge. but i wasn't going to say that.

we arrived at the store and we went over to the film section. my eyes scanned over the options, films like scream and halloween shouting at me, pictures of knives plaguing their covers.

we decided to go for mean girls and moana, two of my all time favourites.

we payed and went off to the take out place, ordering three pizzas and loads of fries, only for the two of us.

when we finally arrived at her house we snuggled up in her bed, clicking the tv on and eating the amazing pizza. we got through it all, mainly me as i was stress eating after the funeral.. but i never said i regretted it.

"thanks betty, it means a lot to me" i admitted looking over to her.

"well, it's the least i could do. you've had it rough recently and i haven't really been there to help you. it's my way of making it up to you" she smiled.

i returned the gesture and focussed back on the movie.

betty ended up falling asleep, so i shut everything off and sat up in the bed. when i heard her faint snores i knew that she was in a deep sleep, something i craved but could not be granted with, due to the fear of an unwanted nightmare.

suddenly my phone began to vibrate, shaking on the sideboard. i immediately picked it up, not wanting to wake betty. i looked down at the caller, unknown. who was calling me at two in the morning?

i decided that it was just an automated message and ended the call, not wanting to ask betty. standing up, i sauntered over to the window, catching a glimpse of the boy next door, also awake.

he was just taking off his tux, leaving his bare chest on show as he pulled on a vest. he caught my gaze and sent me a sympathetic smile and wave, which i returned, before he pulled his curtains along. i sat up onto the window sill, staring out into the distance, wondering where i'd be right now if midge was still around.

probably at home, not even texting her good night. not knowing that she would soon be gone, and taking my best friend for granted. it pained me every minute to know how much i took that god damn girl for granted. but she's gone, so what can i do now?