I made it to Sunnyside trailer park and carried on sprinting until I got to the Jones' trailer. Pulling on the door handle, I noticed that it was locked causing a groan to leave my lips in anger. You're not making this easy are you Ally?
"Ally!? Ally open up!" I shouted loudly, bashing the door with my shoulder.
Suddenly, after about six hits, it flew open sending me through the door and into the wall on the opposite side. My heart race as I frantically checked the whole trailer for her. Then I spotted her frail body, lying across the bed.
Bottles of empty pills were scattered around the bed, decorating the white sheets beside her.
"No"
I rushed to her side, scooping her up in my arms as I wept.
"Ally- Ally wake up" I shook her limp body, he limbs hanging lifelessly as she moved.
I felt her neck for a pulse, but nothing was there. My head was hung low, my arms pulling her up so she could sleep in my arms one last time. I buried my head into the crook of her neck, crying into it as my tears fell over her skin.
"Ally, please don't leave me alone" I sobbed, the first time that I'd cried so freely.
My hand caressed her cold cheek. She could have been asleep she looked so peaceful, I haven't seen her look so calm in a long time. My body rocked as I cried, Ally's body moving in sync with mine as it hung limply.
Suddenly, I heard FP and Jughead's familiar voices and my heart broke even more for them.
"What the hell happened here?" Jughead asked.
"I don't know... Sweet Pea!?" FP shouted, although I couldn't reply.
My tears continued to fall as I stared down at the love of my life, the only person I have ever wanted to spend my life with, dead. She's dead and there's nothing I can do to stop that. I completely failed her, I failed FP and Jughead. I have failed everyone.
"Oh my god" FP sighed, dropping to his knees as soon as he spotted us on the bed.
"Dad, What's wro-" Jughead also came in, not able to move when he saw us there.
"I'm sorry" I cried, holding her cold hand in mine as I wept.
FP didn't answer, he just kept his head in his hands as he knelt on the floor.
Jughead was clearly in denial, shaking his head and doing double takes as he watched his dead sister lying on the bed.
My head couldn't contemplate the situation. How am I physically going to wake up on a morning when I know she isn't going to be there? I'll never hear that laugh again, never see that smile. Never share the jokes or stories. I'll never hold her hand or tell her I love her. I'll never kiss her again or hug her or even just sit with her. I'll never get married to her, or even go to the fucking prom with her.
"Sweet Pea, we need to call the police" FP said, tears covering his reddened cheeks.
"No! We need an ambulance, she can wake up she always does, get a fucking ambulance now!" I shouted angrily, making Jughead slump down and cry into his knees.
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"It's- it's too late" FP sobbed, wiping his tears as he sat on the bed beside us.
He held one of her hands in his, calling the sheriff with the other.
"Hi, I need to r-report a suicide... my- my daughter" He cried at the end, breaking when he said daughter.
Of course, sheriff Keller knows exactly who it was and exactly where they lived so he was right over.
When he walked in, his pity filled expression made me sick to my stomach. Ally hated being pitied.
"Come on, I need to take her now" Keller nodded, leaning down the pull her body away from me.
"No, I'll do it" I growled, picking up her light, limp frame with ease.
He head hung back along with her arms and all I could do was look down at her with extreme sadness and guilt. He pulled out a body bag which I had to lower her into. I can't say this was something I wanted to do, putting your girlfriend in a body bag isn't ideal.
After they'd zipped the bag up, I leant against the wall behind me and watched them take her away, rubbing my chin in disbelief as I realised that I would never see my Ally again.
Jughead and FP went with Keller whilst I stood there in utter shock. How? Why? I was so stupid to leave her. Fangs is going to feel terrible, I feel terrible. She literally sent me a cry for help and all I did was baby her, I bet she wanted to get away even more.
I noticed another letter on her desk, which wasn't addressed to anyone. Warily, I opened the envelope and pulled out the letter. This felt like de ja vu, but in the worst way possible. I waited until my tears had stopped, which took a long time, before I could even begin to read the note.
To whoever finds this note. Please make sure that my family carry on. By family I mean everyone, not just dad and Jughead, I mean Sweet Pea, Toni, Fangs, Betty, Archie, Veronica and anyone else that feels regret or sadness or anything that they shouldn't. This was my choice. I'm so sorry for my selfishness, I'm sorry for everything. Most of all, whoever is reading this needs to make sure that Sweet Lea finds someone else. Maybe wait two years, because that's just insensitive if not.
I chuckled very lightly at this point, but I was laughing through an endless stream of tears.
If it is Sweet Pea reading, I want to thank you endlessly. I would have been gone long ago if it wasn't for you. I love you so much, and I am sorry that I have to do this to you. You were there for me when nobody else was, so I am so sorry to leave you when you need me the most. Just don't mope around for too long okay? Make sure that you carry on as well as you can, I know it will be hard but you have to do this for me. Make sure my dad doesn't start drinking again too please, He was going so well with it and I don't want this to be the reason that Jughead ends up alone. See, this is why I feel selfish, but sometimes you have to be selfish to achieve happiness. I'm happy now, I'll be with Midge. I love you so much, all of you. So to whoever is reading this right now, goodbye.
