I throw up in the trash can. I just can't believe it - I can't believe that Vinny's gone. Tears streaming down my face, I find a chair to sit in and continue my crying.
At this point, I don't care about them seeing me. I don't care about how freaking embarrassing this is.
I just lost someone I love, and that ... well, let's just say I wasn't prepared for that. Everything feels like it's too much, and I cannot handle this whole situation.
How did I go from being on cloud nine to this?
I hate life.
Dr. Connors leads me back upstairs and I freeze when I see my mom standing there. She runs to me, holding me, telling me that she knows what it's like and she knows that I'm upset and life's never gonna be the same again ... But no, she doesn't know. As much as I love her, Mom doesn't know what I'm going through.
She decides to take me home, and I ... it's not home to me anymore. It's just not.
Maybe it would be, if Habit and Vinny were there.
I just hope that somehow, Habit will find me. And soon.
