I Won't Give Up- Jai Brooks Fanfiction

Chapter 13- Don't Hurt Me

Carter’s POV

They say when you think you’re ready, usually you are. The thing is I’m just 15 years old, I’m never really sure of anything. I don’t know what it is about Jai, he so sweet and protective. All these things were rushing through my mind as Jai kissed me. I was about to give him everything, and I was nervous about that. I have no idea what I’m doing, all I know is it feels right. Even though we’re in the middle of nowhere, I know in my heart that this is right.

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By this stage I was in nothing but my underwear, no bra. Jai is a virgin and so am I, we have no idea what we’re doing, but we will make it work. Jai was beginning to sweat, and pant as he kissed me harder. He pulled away and sat back for a second.

“Are you ready?” He questioned.

“Just don’t hurt me okay.” I whispered.

“I’d never hurt you.” He assured me.

“Okay, I think I’m ready.” I nodded.

Jai began the process. It was an unusual feeling and it wasn’t what I expected. It isn’t like the movies, how it’s all perfect for your first time. It hurts a little. It’s hard to get things right when you’ve never done it before. Jai fumbled under the sheets as he came close to his climax.

“Ja-a-ai, it h-ur-ts.” I stuttered as he thrusted harder. “a-hh.” I yelled.

“Fuck!” Jai screamed as he came to his high as did I.

He collapsed on my chest, breathless and puffed. My body hurt, it hurt so much. That defiantly wasn’t how I pictured my first time.

“I’m sorry I hurt you.” He said looking into my eyes while pushing himself up to be hovering above me.

I run my fingers through his hair and twirled through it. I stared back at him before answering.

“It’s okay, it wasn’t your fault.” I forced a smile onto my face.

He rolled off of me and fell beside me onto the small mattress we had laid out. I slowly turned to face him in the pain I was in.

“I don’t know if it’s possible to love someone so easy, because I thought I would be incapable of love at this age, but it’s hard to picture life without you, even though I met you not long ago I feel that I do love you, and I’ve fallen really hard.” I said looking down, almost like I was embarrassed with myself.

“Carter, from the moment I saw you, I couldn’t talk to you; I couldn’t get the words out. I agree I had no idea what love would feel like, but I picture it as something like this. I can’t describe it, but I think I do love you.” Jai said kissing my forehead and then pulling back to face me.

“I don’t know what to do.” I stampered.

“Just do whatever feels right.” Jai said.

I nodded and closed my eyes, feeling my aching body shut down into a deep sleep. The last thing I remember was Jai’s voice whispering,

“I love you Carter-lee Clifford.”

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That was one of the most least pleasurable nights of my life, yet it made me feel so happy.

I woke up, at 8 am the next morning to something vibrating at the end of the bed. It was Jai’s phone, his phone seemed to be clogged with notifications from Twitter, and mine was like that as well. The boys must have worked out that Jai and I are together. Jai wasn’t in the tent. I chucked on my sweats and a white singlet and got out of the tent. My legs and body was still stinging with pain. Jai was sat down on the ground.

“Morning.” I said as I sat down next to him. “Your phone won’t shut up.” I added handing it to him.

We both scrolled through our mentions. Most people were asking where we were and what would happen to the Janoskians. All the fans were writing sweet messages and asking if Jai and I were a couple. Considering I just gave him everything, yes we are a couple. My phone vibrated once more, Jai had mentioned me in something even though he’s sitting right next to me.

@Carter_Clifford and I have gone away for a while, we just need some time, as for the Janoskians they will be fine without me love you all xo

Is what it read. I turned to face him; I smiled and kissed him softly. What is love without you and I? I thought. You can’t have love if you don’t have each other.