Playing for Rya

41. Touch II

Song: Secret love song by Little Mix ft Jason Derulo.

The moment passed as he slid out of her, their gazes holding as he stroked himself for several moments before spilling his seed on her belly.

His cock remained half erect as he settled in beside her and lifted her on top of him, mindless of the cream coating her belly which smeared against him as she settled on his body, her head resting underneath his chin.

His hands gripped her backside and his voice was strained, his tone measured when he spoke.

'You...with Shaw,' he said, 'how do you protect yourself?'

She was quiet for a moment as she considered how to say what she needed to say to him.

'Will and I haven't been together since I got back,' she said quietly, 'I broke things off with him.'

More silence passed between them as she waited for a response from him, a response she received several heartbeats later, when he released a barely audible sigh and gave her asscheeks a small squeeze.

Once again, silence reigned between them and several moments passed before she spoke again. 'For a moment there I thought you hadn't heard me when I told you about the pills.' She said softly.

He was quiet as his hand caressed the curve of her back, her buttocks, her thighs, leisurely roaming anywhere and everywhere on her body that was within immediate reach, and she had begun to think she wouldn't get a response from him when he finally spoke.

'I heard,' he said, 'you should know my first instinct was to claim you in the basest way. To fill you up with my seed until I was certain that in a few short months I would get to see your belly start to grow with our child.'

She bit her lip as she felt his cock twitch against her thigh and her mind conjured a mental image from his words.

'I would be fat,' she mused, 'and fucking horny all the time.'

He chuckled softly, a sound that tugged at her heart strings. It was the first sign of levity she had seen from him since he'd walked through her door.

'You would remain absolutely gorgeous,' he said, 'and it would be my pleasure to attend to your needs.'

She raised her head to gaze down at his dark browns as her thoughts strayed to what it would be like to not have to hide what they had. To love him in full view of the world and to have him do the same.

'Arabella...'

'Derek I...'

They both spoke at the same time and paused and a smile settled over his face as he squeezed the soft flesh of her ass, 'go ahead.' He said.

She shook her head, returning his smile, 'you first.'

He nodded his expression growing serious as he spoke, 'I've made a mess of things between you and I... and Bev,' his gaze searched hers as he spoke, 'and you have both suffered as a result of my mistakes.' The hurt was back in his eyes as he spoke and it broke her heart to see it return.

'I chose you a long time ago Arya,' he said as he smoothed her hair away from her face, 'and I kept choosing you each time I found an excuse to come to New York just so I could catch a glimpse of you going about your life.

Then my mother died and La Cura became a seed in my mind. A place I could build both in memory of her...and in close proximity to you.'

Rya's brows raised as she gazed at him in stunned silence.

'La Cura was always going to be, but I built it here because of you Arabella. To be as close as I possibly could to the woman I didn't want to live without, and in doing so, I chose you again, and shut Beverly out.'

She shivered with longing as his hands continued to roam her body absent-mindedly, but exerted great effort in reigning in her desire as he continued speaking.

'I care deeply for her, and I need to know that she will be okay.' His hands slid slowly up and down her sides as he spoke, 'I need to be sure that both of the women I care for will be alright,' he said, 'and to do that I'll need you to give me a little time. Time to set things right between Bev and I...' He paused to take in her expression before continuing.

'What you saw between us that night...I didn't go through with it Arya, because all I could think of was you.

I allowed things between her and I to go downhill the moment you walked back into my life, but, still I held back from you and I realized that the day you came to return the keycards I gave you. I broke things off with her that afternoon. Minutes later she was lying in my OR unconscious.'

His sigh was a heavy, ragged sound, that spoke to how much the things he was saying to her weighed on him. 'I need her to be alright,' he whispered, 'and I need you to let me make sure that she is.'

Rya nodded as she gazed down at him. She was content in the knowledge of the depth of their feelings for each other and it wasn't a request she needed to consider.

'I need her to be okay too.' She whispered.