Drowning In Love And Sorrows - New Chapters!

The End Of An Era

JALYN'S POV

I woke up in a bed that wasn't mine, in a room with none of my stuff, a place that smelled different, yet familiar.
"Good morning sunshine" said a familiar, cheerful voice.
"Ray... why am I here?" I asked trying to remember why I was at his house, laying on his couch.
"You came over a drunken mess, talking about how you missed Jake and how everything just hurt so badly now. To hear his name, to think about him, to see old pictures, so I hung out with you until you fell asleep.

I could tell I'd been crying, I had eyelashes scattered over my face and mascara down my cheeks. When I moved my face it was dry and cracked from the tears. It's. Been a week since Gee and I decided to take a break, and a month and a half since Jake passed. Everything was out of balance. All I do is just go for walks and do homework, sit around, and rewatch The Corpse Bride over and over. I gave Ray a hug and thanked him. He gave me his dad's big t-shirt to wear home like a dress so I wasn't in my alcohol drenched clothes, I put my hair in a ponytail and started walking down the street to Hannah and Kaitlyn's place.

I got there and Mikey was sitting in the extra room/my room. I threw my phone onto the bed and sat next to him. He had a determined look in his eyes.
"Hey" I said half whispering.
"I gotta talk to you" he said pushing his glasses up on his face.
"About?" I said.
"Gerard is a mess. He's been writing all kinds of songs and just throwing them away. He dyed his hair black hoping to make it into a new era, like starting over. He can barely look at Mouse anymore. He just sits in your room and writes and listens to your vinyls. Gee is always drinking. I swear he was on something last week. Jalyn I'm scared for my. Brother" he was deep in my eyes, he stroked his bangs out of his eyes and looked down.
"Frank has been telling Hannah about how bad it's getting and I don't think it gets any better from here. He saw Kaitlyn and Brendon together the other day and I thought he was going to lose it" He's truly deeply worried.
"I don't know what to do. Just give me a little more time. I'm killing my self over here too. Just let me be for a bit. I'm sorry Mikey... I'll call you soon I guess" I said leaving the room to take a shower.

The next day (Monday)
I woke up the same way I have been for a week... alone. I put on a pair of black shorts and a KISS shirt. I went into the bathroom and put my piercings in their places. My right tragus piercing, both ears, and my left helix. I brushed my teeth and hair, then put on eyeliner and mascara. I grabbed my bag and waited for Hannah, and Kaitlyn. They came downstairs quickly with their bags and Kaitlyn shoved half a bagel in her mouth then handed the other half to Hannah.
"Let's roll" Hannah said.
"Haha get it cus it's bread?" I said following them out the door.
"Hey that was actually pretty good,
Jay" Kaitlyn said making a dig at my bad jokes.

We got to school late and all rushed into our classes. I ran to first block and sat next to Frank. He was writing some poem or something. I'd never seen him write anything in all the time I've known him. I read over his shoulder and I was impressed.
"Wow Frankie... where did this come from?" I asked.
"My brain" he said deep in thought.
"Okay smart ass, it's obviously a song, because I see notes under your words" I said back at him. He laughed at me and I stared at his work.
G-major F G-flat. This was a riff.
"Is Gee letting you write for an album or something" I asked.
"Just lyrical touch up and I wrote the riff last night on my Pansy guitar" he said being patient with me as I asked questions.
"It looks sick... are you doing back up vocals" I continued to ask more.
"Just in the chorus" he replied. I watched him write and hummed his riff in my head as he erased and rewrote note until the class was over. When I walked out of the classroom with Frank behind me, I saw Caroline and Gerard across the hallway standing at the lockers laughing.
"Oh my god Jalyn, let's just go somewhere else" Frank said.
"I need to leave, Frankie" I said with a crackly voice.
"I know let's go" he said putting his arm over my shoulder and guiding me over to the bathroom.

I walked in and he stayed outside. I stood over the sink and stared at myself. What is wrong with me? Why am I like this? I just want to move on. I thought it was just a break! I thought to myself. My face was turning blotchy as tears ran across it. I stared into myself and tried desperately not to cry... until finally I just let go. I sobbed, and let the flood gates go.
"No, no, no! What is wrong with me!" I said still letting my eyes burn into myself. Frank came into the bathroom and immediately hugged me from the side. We walked outside and lowered onto the ground.
"What is wrong with me, Frankie, what did I do?" I kept repeating. He was still hugging me firmly.
"Jalyn... nothing is wrong with you, I've known you your whole life and I've known nothing.
but good" he said comforting me. He waited until the bell rang and then had to go.

I got up and started walking. I headed for the front door, but was stopped by a familiar voice.
"Jalyn?" Someone said as I walked by. I looked up. After realizing who it was I wiped my eyes and shoved my hands in my pockets to prevent my self from hugging him. I kept having to wipe my eyes so the pocket method wasn't much good.
"Oh my god are you okay?" He said grabbing my hand away from my face as I attempted to clear tears. I looked up and his eyes were just as red as I knew mine were. I unlocked my gaze from him. I loved the black hair, and he'd gotten better with eyeliner... but those red eyes. I grabbed my hand back and just looked at him.
"Do I look okay" I asked with my lip shaking. He didn't answer he just grabbed me into a tight hug. I've never felt more wanted in my life. He grabbed my hand and started walking towards the door with me. I didn't want to ask any questions, because I was unsure of the answer. He walked me all the way to his car and put both our bags in the back. We got in and continued the silence. I had no clue what he was thinking. We got out of the car at his house. Mouse was going crazy inside. I walked in and got on my knees. More tears rolled as Mouse wagged his tail and licked my face. Gee smiled and extended his arm to me. I got up and still not saying anything he got me upstairs in his room. The silence was killing me. He let go of my hand and just laid on the bed. I walked over to him and laid next to him.
"Help me sober up" he said it like he'd been kicked in the teeth. Suddenly I noticed all of the empty bottles around the room. I turned my head and looked into his red eyes. I grabbed his hand.
"Sober" I said plainly. I scooted so that my head was on his arm. I used his shirt to wipe my eyes one last time. Sober I thought. Sober.

AHHHHH miss me? I'm so sorry for my hiatus, at least it wasn't like TØP ammirite? Well thank you for your patience and loyalty. I love you Killjoys🖤🕷