Drowning In Love And Sorrows - New Chapters!

A Pill, A Friend, A Mistake

MIKEY'S POV

I wake up, I get dressed, I go to school, I go to rehearsal, I come home, I go to sleep, I start all over again. A boring start to what I believe to be another boring day.
"Get up, you slept in" I yell to Gee as I leave early for school.
"Thanks little brother. I'll be there in a bit" I roll my eyes. I love my brother, to the ends of the earth. But I'm not just little brother. His friends are mine, mine are his. I shouldn't feel belittled but I do. I'm younger, I'm not as good looking, I've never really dated anyone, I'm obsessed with my video games, and the only friend I have in my grade is Ray. Sounds like paradise right?

I get into Frank's car.
"Hey man, what's up? I've got a huge project to present today. And I forgot my lunch" he said as I buckled in next to him.
"I have to write a speech for my key club. I hate that club, I'm only in it for the credibility" I said whining.
"I don't understand that club. It's like NHS for the kids that didn't want to be in it" he said relating to me.
"Exactly. I just need the extra push on my application" I replied.

We pulled into the school and got out. Frank said hi to people on the way in. He's not really friends with any of the people. Aquatints I guess is more like it. At least he's known. I'm only known as the kid that will do your homework, and the one Steve wants to kill.
We get inside and I go over to ray. We immediately hook up our phones and play 'Batman: Arkham Knight' until Hannah and Kaitlyn show up. Hannah gave Frank a big hug and Kaitlyn stared at Brendon as he walked over towards her. The two of them branched off and I looked around the atrium. I scanned the room until I saw someone waving me over. I looked around behind me then pointed to myself and made one of those you-talking-to-me? Faces that makes you seem like an idiot. He nodded and I suspiciously started to walk over. Ray looked up and shrugged behind me not really caring where I was off to.

The girl looked jittery as I approached and she looked at me straight as she held up a small bag of pills and said.
"Oxy, I have an extra pill, want it?" She said with her hand shaking. I thought for a moment. Why in the world would she be asking me? And I can't do drugs.
"Why me?" I asked.
"No reason, but this is thin so it only lasts and hour to an hour and a half after it kicks in" she replied a little less creepily. I took the pill from her hand and shoved it in my backpack. There's no way I'd actually take it. I just needed a reason to walk away. I went back to the group. We all said our goodbyes and went off to class.

I walked to first period math and sat in the class as I watched her explain a subject we learned I'm freshman year. I eventually got bored and raised my hand.
"Why are we relearning standard and inverse variation? We're juniors, that's a freshman subject" I said putting my hand down on the table.
"The boy speaks!" A football player, Nickolas said slamming his fist on the table. Mrs. Quinn put down her EXPO marker and looked at me.
"Because we need to know how to do it for our next unit." She said it blankly and irritated. Nickolas came over and sat in a seat after making the person sitting next to me move. I rolled my eyes as he lowered himself into the seat. I think he's the only single football player on the varsity team... shocking right? He looked at me and whispered
"Since when do you care about anything?" He said running his hands through his hair. I moved my bangs out of my face and pushed my glasses up.
"I've always cared, just never actually did anything about it" I whispered back at him.
"I like it when you talk. I wanna help you. Skip lunch with me and meet me in the bathroom, okay? It won't take long I just want you to try something" he said. I reluctantly told him yes and went back to my worksheet.

Second period came and went. I was told that I might have to speak in front of the whole school at a meeting about the outlook of junior year, which means my speech wasn't as bad as I thought. I still don't like the idea of speaking in front of all those people. Lunch time rolled around and I went to the junior bathroom to see Nickolas standing next to the door outside.
"There you are, c'mon" he said opening the door.
"This seems gay" I said laughing.
"Ew no, I'm straight. Calm down. First do you have contacts?" He asked and I looked up as I shoved my hand in my pocket and pulled out contacts.
"Here" I took of my glasses and popped them in. I turned around and looked at him after checking them in the mirror. He took off my beanie and parted my hair. It took him a minute to figure out where my hairline was with all of my bangs hanging down.
"There. I like it. Wow I'm good" I turned to see a look I never thought I'd pull off in the mirror.
"Wow... this is different" I said looking back at him. He smiled and took off my scarf and made it so you could see my shirt underneath of my jean jacket.
"Okay. You look good, you're free to go."
"Thanks Nickolas. It looks good" I said
"We should hangout this weekend. Friday or Saturday I'm free" he said about to leave.
"Friday. I have band practice on Saturday" I said walking out behind him.
"Okay, and call me Nick. I'll DM you when and where we're going" He said walking away.

I walked to the cafeteria and sat with Kaitlyn, Jalyn, and Gerard. Frank, Hannah, and Ray have first lunch, we have second lunch. I sat down and they looked at me all funny.
"What are you guys staring at?" I said. They all looked at each other. Kaitlyn spoke up.
"Well you look a little different... not bad different, really good different actually" she said smiling at me.
"Thanks. Nickolas helped me out with it. He's actually not a douche" I said looking from person to person.
"Wow that's surprising" she said half sarcastically. We all laughed at her and devoured our food.
I went through my last two classes fairly quickly and rode home with Frank.

When I got home I went to my room and dropped my bag. I remembered the pill that was in there. I took it out and looked at it. What kind of looser would I be if I didn't take it. I mean Gee has done it, he said he's never do it again because of how bad it was, but I should learn for myself. I was thinking irrationally and swallowed the small pill. I sat around for about 15 minutes when it kicked in hard. I left the room. It was like I was trapped in the shell of someone else. I walked into Jalyn's room where she was doing homework. Gerard was in the kitchen. I looked at her and said nothing.
"Hey. Are you okay? You look flush" she said sympathetically. I wanted it to be over already. I hate this I will never do this again. I thought to myself.
"Jalyn, I did something" I said.
"Mikey, what happened you're scaring me" she said placing a hand on my forehead. I started to get angry. There was nothing to be angry about. At all. I grabbed her by her wrists and slammed her into the wall behind her.
"Okay, okay. Whatever happened we can fix it okay? But you have to let me go... Mikey?" She looked terrified. I wanted to stop, I begged myself to stop, but I'd lost control over everything.
"*yelling* God Jalyn stop trying to help me. You can't do anything about me" I said. The words my voice spoke didn't make sense to me. I had no clue what I was talking about anymore.
"Mikey, dude you're hurting my wrists, you need to let go Mike." I wanted to stop but something kept me stiff and I wouldn't let go. I was about to let go when Gerard walked in. Judging by the look on his face he thought we were cheating.
"What the hell. Are you serious?! Jalyn with my own brother? And Mikey what the hell man your supposed to be there for me" he said angry.
"No, no, no. That's not what's going on, Gee. I swear to you. Something is wrong with Mikey and he pinned me" Jay said with a worried expression on her face.
"Oh yea you expect me to believe that" he said getting almost as red as his hair.
I looked around panicked. I screamed and turned to Jalyn and hit her, hard. I stormed out of the room. I sat in my room until it finally wore off, and all I felt was bitter angriness. I could hear yelling down stairs.
"You have to believe me, I would never do that to you, I love you" I could hear Jalyn screaming from Gerard's room.
"You lovED me... I can't believe you" he said back at her. I can never forgive myself for what I did. I can't believe I would have hit her. She's my family at this point, I've never intentionally hurt her in my entire life. I laid back on my bed and started crying. I continued to listen to the screams. And suddenly the screams turned to Jalyn sobbing.
"What do you want me to do, I can't make you believe me" she said crying loudly.
"I want you to leave" Gerard said madly. There was a pause. The silence was only filled with crying Jalyn.
"You're breaking up with me?" She asked.
"No I'm finding out the whole story, and cooling the hell off so just give me space" he said mad.

JALYN'S POV

I walked into my room crying. I packed a bag of clothes for three days and called Hannah.
"Hey, me and Gee got into s huge fight, I'll tell you about it later" I was interrupted by a concerned Hannah.
"Oh my gosh Jalyn are you okay you're sobbing??" She said.
"Can I stay at your place for a little while.  It for a long time, I promise" I said making sure she knew it was just temporary.
"Of course, stay as long as you want to" she said sweetly.
"Kay, I'm on my way over, bye" I said.
"Okay drive safe" she said and hung up.

Gerard walked in as I zipped my bag up.
"Are you okay?" He said quietly as he leaned against the door frame.
"Oh yeah I'm just peachy"
I said wiping tears away and looking into his eyes. My lip was quivering and my eyes were on fire.
"I know, I'm sorry he hit you. I'll talk to him. I don't know what will come out of it, but I just wanted to say sorry" he said almost making me cave and want to hug him. But I'm too furious to love him right now. I picked up my bag and walked past him. I turned as I opened the front door.
"Thanks for being sorry" I said plainly. Mouse ran up to me and tried to follow me.
"No mouse. You stay, you stay with Mikey... he needs you" he sat down and looked at me sideways. I started to cry again as Mouse whined.
"Stay with Mikey" I turned back around and closed the door behind me. I walked towards Hannah's, hating everything.

Hey! Sorry for not publishing in forever, but this is a good one. It's also super long. I'm publishing again soon so be ready. I love you Killjoys🖤🕷