I Talk Too Much

please take me away from here

*winces*

Sorry about the little mini hiatus

It started out accidental but then I ended up deciding to stay away and I don't even know why

I know it's only been a few days but hey a lot can happen in a few days

I'm...

Not okay

My mental state seriously deteriorated in a really short amount of time and I'm just...hurting.

I haven't had the motivation to do anything these past few days- even getting out of bed was a challenge. I've just been listening to music and doodling and developing characters and just thinking.

Which in my case is not usually a good idea.

I've basically stopped eating and my sleep schedule is fucked beyond belief. And that wasn't a conscious choice- it just happened. Nothing is appetizing and every time I try to sleep (at night, like a normal person), I just lie awake and think myself into an existential crisis.

I guess I'll sleep when I'm dead, right?

Summer's almost over, and then comes school/my job, and then it'll be Autumn and then Winter and I'll be pushed into college and I just

To put it as simply as I can, I'm scared out of my mind and I'm being super emotional and I just don't know what to do

I don't want to be here

I don't even know where I'd rather be

Just not here

Not in this place, not in this life.

I don't want to be here.

*sighs*

I'm gonna try to get a new FD chapter up by Tuesday, but I may not be active until then

I don't know what's wrong and I don't know how to fix it, but I'm trying

That's really all I can say at the moment

I'm trying.

Peace, love, and liberosis

~Rush and Nina