Wicked Games (book one)

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shed a tear - kodaline
| open your eyes, I'm by your side, I'll never leave you |
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jaylee's pov

silence filled my ears, hearing nothing except the sound of the rubber tires coming into contact with the rocks that created a road.

the car came to a stop in front of my house, but I didn't look away from the road. my mind felt like it was being over worked, confused, frustrated, and nervous.

I'm about to get my ass beat. I have no doubt in my mind that sammy told my parents I cheated on him, and they will fully disown me for that.

even when I blamed sammy for cheating, which he was, they didn't care. as long as sammy is okay, they couldn't care less about me.

ethans head turned to me, probably wondering why I wasn't moving from the seat in his car. my eyes stayed forward, not prepared to go inside.

his warm fingers gently brushed across the skin on my neck where only a little bit of foundation covered.

after he examined it, a stress filled sigh left his mouth as he grabbed the material of the hoodie I was wearing, pulling it upwards to cover the mark as best as he could. "I'm sorry."

I blinked once, snapping fully into reality, turning my head towards the window. "it's fine." I spoke in a low tone.

he adjusted himself to be fully facing me, "are you mad at me?" he questioned in a soft voice, hope laced in with the soft tone.

my heart fell, feeling bad after hearing how genuine and worried he sounded. I turned towards him, looking directly into his gentle eyes. "I'm not mad." I told him honestly.

he pursed his lips together as he looked down slightly, "why do you look like it then?" he asked, not wanting me to be upset with him.

I turned back towards the front of the car, "I'm not mad at you, ethan." I told him as I let out a breath of air. "I'm mad at myself." I mumbled before clenching my jaw.

"you didn't do anything wrong." he told me sternly as if it were a fact.

a small laugh escaped my mouth as I looked at him in shock. "you're kidding right?" my eyebrows raised as if he were crazy.

he narrowed his eyebrows, giving me a questioning look, clearly not understanding.

"i didn't stop you from giving me the hickey, I didn't cover it well enough, and I walked straight past you and walked to sammy." I stated all of the reasonings. "obviously he was gonna find out."

his hand lightly grabbed my hand from my lap, holding onto it in a comforting gesture. "don't put this on yourself."

instantly, warmth flooded into my body. I looked down to our hands, feeling butterflies start floating in my stomach.

"can I ask you something?" he asked, his thumb beginning to lightly rub against the skin on the back of my hand.

I nodded, apart of me gaining interest in what he wanted to know.

he looked down, letting out a light sigh as if he didn't know how to ask. "why did you walk past me in the hallway?" his eyes looked back up to me.

my chest inhaled as I thought to myself. my tongue licked the inside of my cheek, "I um." I swallowed the air stuck in my throat. "I talked with raven."

his eyebrows almost immediately narrowed, his lips separating from each other as he looked at me. "what did she say?"

I shrugged as I looked down to our hands in my lap, my opposite hand playing with his fingers. "she just told me the reasoning of why you two started hating each other." I told him, feeling awkward as I spoke.

he looked at my sharply, having an anger threaded into the emotions on his face. "and what reason is that?" his voice was deep, more serious.

I licked my lips, looking at the road in front of us. a small scoff left my mouth; hating the fact that I have to tell him the things raven said about him, "she said you two were best friends." I started.

"and?" his eyebrow raised, eyes squinted as he questioned in a harsh voice

"and she said that you dropped her," I slowly started feeling hesitant, not wanting to hurt his feeling, but I said it anyways. "because she wouldn't sleep with you."

his jaw clenched tightly, looking away from me as he inhaled a deep breath through his nose, causing his chest to inflate. his hand let go of mine as if he were uncomfortable.

my eyebrows lowered seeing that he was clearly frustrated and upset with what I had told him. "ethan it's okay. you don't have to be mad."

a small laugh escaped his mouth as he squinted his eyes at me. "I'm not?" he spoke as if he were questioning me.

I was taken back by his sudden mood change, not understanding why he's being harsh all of a sudden.

he let out a breath of air as he looked away from me. "you should go, your parents are probably waiting for you." he suggested keeping a plain voice, refusing to make eye contact with me.

"ethan." I spoke in almost a mumble.
"no seriously." his eyes widened as he looked back to me. "the longer you wait, the worse it will get."

I rubbed my lips together as I looked down to my lap-looking away from him. "im scared." I admit in a sensitive tone.

"you'll be okay, just call me if you need anything." his hand gently rubbed my back up and down, only a couple of times before putting them back into his lap.

I nodded hesitantly, feeling the sense that something was off. I let out a deep breath, looking back out of the window-to my house.

as an uneasy feeling gathered in my stomach, I turned back towards ethan to say goodbye.

I leaned in towards him, pressing a soft kiss onto his cheek. "I'll see you tomorrow." I told him in a weak tone, not understanding why he's acting his way.

he nodded as his tongue licked the corner of his mouth. "be safe." he spoke shortly.

"I will." I told him as I grabbed my backpack from the floor of the car. I grabbed onto the door handle, pushing it open as I slid out of the car. "bye." I spoke in a whisper.

his eyebrows lifted up, then down as if that were his way of saying bye.

my eyebrows furrowed as I shut the car door, turning on my heel to walk away from his car.

is he seriously that upset with what raven told me? he wouldn't even look at me.

I turned my attention back at my house, feeling a tight knot pinch my stomach. I inhaled deeply, then exhaled as I began walking towards the front door.

I'm not ready for this.

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