aggression | luke hemmings

Chapter Forty Nine

Becca's POV

I sigh and lean against my pillows. The song changes to A World Alone by Lorde. It's a suggestion on Spotify, I've never heard of it but it is so amazing.

Lily walks in so I hold out my arms, not making a sound as Lorde's unique voice plays in my ears. Lily cleans off my cuts/scars and waves as she leaves the room, but she returns with a tray of food. Luckily the bread smells normal this time. It still is too dry for my liking, to eat it.

It's around 8 PM and I spent the day alone, except for this morning when Mike dropped in. I enjoyed his company a lot, but I enjoy being alone just as much so that I can sort my thoughts out or listen to music or eat lots of Jello from the hospital.

At 9 I finish eating. It took an hour because the meals here are so large. Anyway I turn off my phone and place the earbuds on my side table. I lay down and close my eyes, drifting to my dreams in a few seconds.

In the morning, I wake up to the sound of shuffling. It's 9, so I assume the doctor is looking through papers. When I open my eyes I see that my theory was right.

"Good morning Mrs. Hemmings," Dr. Klein greets me.

"Morning," I say, stopping myself before I say "morning Luke". I chuckle to myself and watch as the doctor puts a few papers in the folder.

"I think you're getting out of here in.... One hour," He smiles. I smile back and nod. He hands me a piece of paper to sign so I do and hand it back to him, and he leaves. I make sure I have everything with me, my phone is in my pockets and Lily let me keep the earbuds so they're there too. The clothes I wore that horrible suicidal day about a week ago, are piled neatly in a bag so I grab that. I pull my hair into a messy bun and set the tray from last night, on the floor.

I get a drink from the bottle of water and toss the small bottle of pills into my bag of clothes, just in case they decide to be useful. Even if they don't, I can take one and it'll take me to that peaceful state (despite the harsh images playing in my mind, I liked the me-time).

Jessie walks in after 45 minutes and checks my arms. "You're good to go," she smiles.

I stand up, following her to the lobby. Just when we get there, Luke and Livi walk in. I grin and run over to them, hugging them both.

"You ready to go?" Luke asks when I pull away.

"Yeah," I say and follow them outside.

"So," Livi says. "Luke told me those pills stopped working," she adds quietly. Luke's eyes widen, most likely hoping I won't be mad, which I'm not.

"Okay," I say. Luke sighs and opens the passenger door for me. He gets in next to me and Livi climbs in behind Luke. I turn on the radio and the song All Of Me by John Legend is on. It's slow but I like it regardless. I smile and stare out of the window for the whole drive.

Luke parks in front of our apartment, Livi gets out and goes to the one next door and Luke follows me into ours. I smile and look around, it looks the same as it did last time I was in here. Then I frown because last time I was here was a hard time for all of us.

Anyway, I walk upstairs and sit down on the bed. Luke follows me and kisses my forehead. I sigh and pull my phone from my pocket, seeing it's 10:02.

"I have to take you out," Luke says, more of a demandment than a suggestion. I shrug and pick some better looking clothes to throw on, a pair of white shorts and a blue long-sleeved shirt. I put them on in the bathroom and pull my hair in a neat pony tail.

When I walk back out, Luke is wearing a beanie and holds out his hand. I take it and walk outside with him, we don't get in the car but instead we walk toward the mall. I smile down at the ground as we walk, because the mall brings back so many memories. Like the day I met Luke, I literally thought he was gonna be my best friend. Little did I know, he would propose and marry me.