Sooner or Later.

-twenty nine-

-charlie-

I woke up to the sound of rocks tapping at my window the next morning.

I rubbed my eyes and checked my phone.

Two missed calls from James and three texts.

'Hey'

'Wanna hang out today?'

'Ill be over in 5'

I rolled my eyes and walked to the window.

Sure enough, It was James throwing stones at my window.

"Sleepy head lets go." He said.

He obviously didn't know he had hurt me.

I shook my head and shut the window.

"Charlie come on." He yelled.

I felt a tear roll down my cheek.

"No." I said opening the window once more.

I saw him walk away.

Good, he needs to leave.

I decided to go back to sleep.

After a couple of minutes, I heard a knock at my door.

I figured it was my mom telling me to get up, so I went to it and opened it.

But it was James.

I rolled my eyes at him and shut the door.

"Charlie, Come on whats up with you?" He asked pushing the door in and sitting on my bed.

"James please get out." I said sitting a little way away from him on the bed.

"Why the hell are you acting like this?" He asked.

"James, do you realize what happened last night?" I asked him.

"Something happened?" He asked.

"I had to walk home." I started.

"So you're mad at me because you had to walk home? Look Charlie I'm sorry, but come on." He said.

"Thats not the reason I'm upset with you." I added.

"Then you better tell me." He said starting to get annoying.

He was really pissing me off right now, coming into my room and getting mad because he thinks I'm overreacting.

"I almost got raped." I whispered.

'What?" He asked.

"I almost got raped." I said this time much louder.

"What happened?"

"When you and Abigail started kissing I decided to leave because I took a hint, I was geting something to drink when a guy bumped into me and spilled his drink on me. We started talking and I thought he was nice enough, so he told me he wanted to show me something, so I followed him, but then he started grabbing me." I said.

James just stared at me.

"And that's not even the worst part, the worst part was that my best friend cared more about hooking up with his girlfriend than he cared about making sure I was okay." I spat at him.

I felt one quick tear fall down my cheek, but I wasn't sad, I was angry.

"What did he do?" James asked ignoring my statement.

"He grabbed my butt, my chest, he fingered me and kissed me." I said trying to swallow back tears that started forming in my eyes.

"Charlie-" James said reaching over and rubbing my thigh.

"Don't touch me!" I yelled.

He jumped and removed his hand from my leg.

"I feel betrayed, and forgotten James, how was sex with her? Did you scream her name? Well I hope it was excellent because you have lost your best friend over it." I said pointing to the door.

James looked over at my wrist, i grabbed it and held it with my hand so he wouldn't see the tiny marks neatly cut across it.

It was too late because he grabbed my wrist and truned it to see the little cuts there.

"Charlie.." He said looking at me then my wrist.

I yanked it away from him.

"Charlie why would you ever do that?" He asked walking closer to me.

I backed away.

"James, go." I said firmly.

I felt tear after tear fall down my face.

"No Charlie, why on Earth-"

"Leave!" I yelled loudly at him.

He looked taken aback so he nodded at me and walked out of my door.

I fell to the ground and let the tears fall and fall until I couldn't cry anymore.

I looked down at my wrists.

I was clean for almost three years until last night.

I had gotten over most of my problems, but last night was too much for me to handle.

I don't regret it, in a twisted way, it made me feel better.

I sat up on my bed and grabbed my phone.

No missed calls, no messages.

Good,

-james-

After I had walked out of Charlie's room, I stood there for a minute.

"Wow." was all I could manage to say

I have been a terrible person, I let her cut herself and I left her alone after she had almost been raped.

All for some sex.

We hadn't even had sex that night.

I broke up with Abigail.

And I'm sure as hell glad that I did.

hey!

If any of you are confused, it's okay, next chapter I'll explain why James broke up with Abigail.

~j.m

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