Sooner or Later.

-forty four-

-james-

As soon as her lips hit mines my eyes widended with shock, then they closed.

Her arms wrapped around my neck and my hands found their way to her waist.

The rain mixed inbetween the kiss and I didn't know what was happening, or how I was feeling.

A large part of me wanted this, what ever this was to stop, but an even bigger part of me never wanted this kiss to end.

I had to react.

I pulled my lips away from hers and once we were separated, every ounce of my body wanted to kiss her again.

"Charlie, I can't" I said.

Her arms didn't move from my neck and to my suprise, neither did mine.

We couldn't do this, we can't date.

For gods sake we were best friends ten minutes ago.

It took every ounce of strength in my body to pull mysself from her, but I did.

I turned from her without saying another word.

I knew that if I looked back at her, into her eyes then I would lose all my strength and run back towards her.

I heard the front door slam and I knew she was back inside.

I walked back over to her house and sat on the porch.

I needed to just rethink everything that just happened;

I called her a bitch and she kissed me.

Fuck.

There has always been this nagging voice in the back of my head telling me that shes the one, shes the only girl for me.

Now that it finally happened I don't know what to think.

Sure I love her, and shes the most beautiful girl I've ever seen, I'd think I'd do anything for this girl.

Then why the fuck am I even debating if we should be together?

Its obious and it always has been.

I heard a crash coming from inside the house and I didn't think much of it, until I realized who we were dealing with.

I ran inside the house and quickly dialed her mum's phone.

"James?" She said through the line.

"Beth, call the police and come quickly I think Charlie is trying to kill herself." I said hanging up the phone and rushing up the stairs.

Her room was empty.

The bathroom.

I tried opening the door but it was locked.

"CHARLIE!" I yelled banging on it.

I only heard sobs coming from the door.

"CHARLIE OPEN THIS GODDAMN DOOR!" I screamed.

I heard another crash and panicked.

I stepped back and kicked the door.

I kept punching and kicking until it was finally off of it's hinges.

There stood Charlie, with a broken mirror in front of her, tears on her cheeks, and a handful of pills moving towards her mouth.

I jumped towards her and knocked the pills from her hands and onto the floor.

"WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?" She screamed at me.

She looked down at the pills that were on the floor and started crying even harder.