Just One Kiss || David Dobrik X Reader ✔

Chapter 42: Smile When I'm Gone

We all sat around my Dad. Every one of us crying. They were moments away from unhooking the monitors. David stood outside with all of our friends. All of them. Not one person was left out. Every one of our friends shown in the vlogs came. It was almost overwhelming how much they cared.

"Can I request something at my funeral?" My Dad asked.

"Yeah" My Mom answered.

"You know that song I always said I wanted played at my funeral?" He asked us.

"Yes" We all said.

"I want you to sing it, Y/N." I smiled through my tears. "And I want you to record it after. I want it released to the world and to be downloaded all across the world." He added.

I nodded my head. "I will Dad. I will" I said still crying and smiling.

"Are you ready Mr. Y/L/N?" The nurse asked.

"Yeah, but one more thing." My Dad replied. "Every one of you, promise me one thing." He continued.

"Smile when I'm gone. Don't let this hold you back in life. I want your smiles lighting up the world like normal. I'm not telling you to forget about me. Just to let other things make you cry. Not just my death. Okay?" He told us.

We all nodded. Tears spilling from our eyes to the floor. He nodded to the nurses. I could hear them unhook everything. And with his last breath, my Dad spoke.

"Smile for me" He gasped before he fell limp.

Everyone froze. A nurse placed her hand on my Mother's shoulder.

"I am sorry for your loss" She whispered.

I was the first to move. I stood up and walked to the door. I opened the door and stumbled out. All of my friends stood up and walked over to me. David practically ran to me. He wrapped his arms around me as I slowly broke in his arms. I cried and cried into his arms. I could hear some of my friends start to cry. I heard David sniffle. He was crying too.

"It's okay" David whispered.

I nodded my head and smiled as I continued to cry.

Smile when I'm gone

I repeated the words in my head. Over and over.

Smile when I'm gone

Smile when I'm gone

Smile when I'm gone

Smile when I'm gone

I then remembered his last words.

Smile for me

'I will Dad' I thought to myself.

'I will'

Moments flashed before my eyes. From the moment I saw my Dad for the first time to the moment I said goodbye. Every second I spent with him. Every fight. Every laugh. Every smile. Every tear. Every confession. Every celebration. All of it.

In that moment I realized one thing. I should've cherished every moment with my Dad. Every time he came into my room wanting to watch a movie, play catch, or just talk. Every time I shooed him away and told him I didn't want to talk. Now I can't even do that. I can't gain those moments back. He was gone. And I felt like a piece of me died along with him.

"I guess that's what saying good-bye is always like-like jumping off an edge. The worst part is making the choice to do it. Once you're in the air, there's nothing you can do but let go."

― Lauren Oliver, Before I Fall

Sure I cried a lot that day. But at the end of the day I smiled. I smiled at the thought of my Dad seeing me. Seeing me cry into my boyfriend's arms. And me gradually smiling through those tears. Holding onto hope. Knowing that he's crying with me.

And I'm smiling for him.

I'm smiling even though he's gone.

~A/N~

I'm sorry this chapter is so short, but I can't go any farther... Once again, tell me if this made you cry in the comments. I'd love to hear your feedback. Good or Bad. Wow, this is a great Christmas Eve. I honestly had no clue I was capable of writing like this. I never knew I could be this moved by a piece of writing. That may sound like I'm full of myself and whatever, but I'm just speaking my mind.

P.S. I will be posting a Christmas chapter tomorrow

Hugs, Kisses, and Tears,

~Emma Maddy~

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