Just The Two Of Us <Sweet Pea FF>

10. Paradise

The next morning I wake up with a bad headache. I turn around in bed to see an empty other side. Just then I remember what happend yesterday. I peek under the sheets to see that I'm still wearing my clothes from yesterday. Great, I look at my phone to see that it's already 10:45 am, and it's Friday but I don't care because no serpent is going to school today. I lay back down because I started feeling dizzy but I don't want to sleep now so I slowly get up and sit in the edge of the bed. I rub my eyes, stand up and walk into the kitchen. Sweet pea is sitting there eating a bread and texting on his phone. I look at him and walk past him towards the fridge. Water, I need water and food. I pour some water in a cup and put some cream cheese on a bread. Teh awkward silent sometimes gets interrupted by some noises but no-one says a word. Why is he mad anyway, because i got drunk? Pff at least I didn't look at other half naked boys. I sit down and he starts speaking "how are you feeling"
"Alright" actually I feel miserable but he doesn't need to know that. "Why did you walk away and get drunk last night, huh?" I nearly start laughing "Well, at least I didn't watch other boys stripping" I press out of my mouth with my teeth shut. "Was I supposed to close my eyes?" He meant even understand what he did wrong wow. "Was I supposed to watch my boyfriend enjoy a pole dance?" He obviously is annoyed that I always answer with questions but now I have enough. "That's why I walked away, not only because this girl made me cringe but because I couldn't stand watching you enjoy her stripping. I don't forbid anything but I expected you to be loyal to me. I was angry and sad but most I was dissapointed... And surprised" I laugh a bit because this is so absurd "so I walked away and drank with Toni, wow, so maybe you watched some girls dancing at a pole before but now you are in a relationship with me so you shouldnt do that anymore" I shout now and my head starts to hurt so I sit down again. Awkward silence. This is starting to piss me of, can't he say something? I look at him waiting for a response. He sighs "look Julia I'm sorry but I'm not used to being in a serious relationship. Furthermore I didn't think this would upset you so much" wow he is really insensitive "And then I saw you pretty drunk and I don't like you being like that in a bar full of men."
"Alright"
"sorry"
"ok so you stay loyal to me and look at other girls like that"
"And you're allowed to get drunk but preferably with me" he grins and I can't stay mad at him "k" I say and it doesn't feel Like everything is like beforehand but at least we talked about it and it's fine now.
He stands up so do I and he looks down into my eyes. It feels like our relationship is a bit stronger now and I have this feeling in my stomach that I can't describe and I wish I could show him how much I like him but I don't know how. I never experienced love, I didn't receive it neither did I give it to someone. I don't want to open my feelings because I don't want to ket down my guard. I don't want to be vulnerable. I can't do that. I can't let myself go there.

~Sweet peas pov:
I wish I could express my feelings towards her. I care about her, I really do but I never had someone a family to show me love. I needed to be the tough one. I can't think of a way to show her that I'll always be there for her. We just look at each other stuck in out thoughts when she hugs me. Her head rests on my chest so that she can listen to my heartbeat. After a second I put my arms around her and pull her closer to me. For some time we just stood there in the small kitchen, she in my arms, like this was the last hug we'd ever share.