Shardon fanfiction: Loveteam [COMPLETED]

OKS Lang

Song: OKS Lang by John Roa

"Kasama din natin ang bida sa The Gift, Sharlene San Pedro and Nash Aguas..."

My world stopped when you walked into my life again with that familiar smile that I haven't seen for a while. All I wanted at this moment is to cross that distance between us and hold you in my arms...To tell you how much I miss you, LOVE after months of being apart from each other.

"Donny..." How can you pretend as if everything is okay? Wala lang. Tinawid mo lang ang distansya sa pagitan natin at nagbeso ka na parang walang nangyari saten. Like it's the first time you met me. You just treated me like a freakin' stranger. You know what's crazy? Even that simple gesture, our skins touching, made me happier than I have been in months. You've changed your perfume, I could tell. You've changed. Or maybe that's really who you are and I was just a too in love with you not to notice your coldness and selfishness.

Siniko ako ni Kuya Robbie. His eyes were signaling me to keep my shit together. I couldn't...I thought I could go through this interview but I can't even understand what I'm feeling now. I just kept repeating the last words that Kuya Robbie is saying. Napapayuko na lang ako at tumitingin sa sahig o sa malayo. I should've been more professional in dealing with my feelings especially that we're on national television. Pero anong magagawa ko? Sadyang marupok ako kahit sa presensya mo.

"Wala silang emosyon...di sila nalulungkot..."

Nash was describing his character in your movie but the words seemed to perfectly describe you. You don't even care. Nagpatuloy ka lang sa buhay nang wala ako. Mukha ka namang masaya. Mas lalo kang gumanda sa suot mo. Walang bahid ng kalungkutan sa mukha mo. Game na game ka pang sumagot sa mga tanong. How about me? Did you even know what I went through? Did you even bother to ask me how I am?

I had to pretend that I was okay, everyday. In the company of our friends. In social media. I had to fake a smile in national television, fake it with my love team because that's my job. I had to be tough in front of my family because this is my choice. Alam ko naman, choice ko to.

But when I am alone, I break down like a lost child. I never tell anyone how much it hurts to not choose you, Shar. Mag-isa kong pinagdaanan ang sakit ng hindi pagpili sa'yo. Sa atin. Gusto kong balikan ang oras na iyon at baguhin ang desisyon ko.

Sobrang sakit na makita ko si Nash na inaalalayan ka pababa ng stage. Even if I know that there's nothing going on between the two of you but damn, it hurts like crazy kasi ako dapat yan eh. I should have been a man who fought for you. Dapat pinaglaban kita. Dapat pinaglaban natin to. Bakit ba tayo sumuko? Bakit ba napakahina nating dalawa? Bakit hindi tayo katulad ng iba na matapang na pinaglalaban ang relasyon nila?

"Pare, kamusta ka na?" Nakangiting bungad sa akin ni Nash.

Napatingin ako sayo habang kausap si Kuya Robbie. "OKS lang pare. Okay lang ako."