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roger's point of view

six days later

I was happy for Olivia. So proud of her. She had finally made it on to one crutch instead of two! For the past six days since the whole me leaving her alone ordeal, she's been avoiding me at all costs except for health, considering she still needs help to get out of bed, make food, etc. This may be good for her, considering of the screw up I am and basically ruining our chances together at all.

But it's not good for me.

I've been ultimately anxious since that morning. The morning where she confessed how she felt after I had hurt her earlier that morning and I couldn't even say how I felt back to her. Like, what is wrong with me? This girl made me so happy, so many things were going right in my life when I moved in with her, it hadn't even been two weeks and we've had to throw an abusive boyfriend, hospital visits and a beautiful girl that I am head over heels for avoiding me into the mix.

It got to the point where I was struggling at work. I couldn't come up with any songs for the first album whereas the other guys were just using every idea that popped into their head; but she was the only thing in my head. She had overtaken my mind, and those tears streaming down her face when I couldn't even reply to her that morning just kept replaying in my head. It was terrible.

It also got to the point where I was falling apart without any form of communication from her. It was so awkward. When we used to be overcome with silence, it was comfortable. Now, I want to bury myself in a hole when silence falls between us. She doesn't even say hi to me when I walk through the door, it's just "good morning" and "good night" every morning and night.

I don't know what to do anymore. I can't even see if she's alright, if she's crying every night or not, with the fear of her being over me before things even started. I can't talk to the boys about it because I know they will just rip into me.

that day

"So today and tomorrow will be your final chance to write up any new songs or ideas that pop into your head for the new album. Even if it's an idea in your head, we can develop it into a song, okay?"

"Yep," We all replied in response to Fred.

"Alrighty, well tonight we're going to record some group vocals then do some runs of the drums, is that alright, Rog?" Freddie asked me.

"What? Oh yeah, that's fine."

"What's up Roger hm? You don't seem yourself lately." Brian asked me.