Heart Ain't A Brain

Prologue

The human brain can be your greatest asset or your biggest enemy. It can motivate you with encouraging words, or tear you down with the thoughts that lurk in the shadows of its being. Growing up I was never the girl that oozed confidence. I was socially awkward always looking for validation through the opinions of others. Do you know how hard it is going through life being your own worst critic? In your eyes you are never good enough no matter how many times your loved ones tell you that you are. You believe that everyone has some type of ulterior motive when they try to convince you that it's all in your head. I have never believed that I was beautiful but have been told many times that I am by family, friends, or even people that do not know me. But how can I believe them when I look in the mirror, and see something that doesn't reflect the picture of what everyone else sees. It is like my brain is split into two; one side telling me you have a lot going for you. You are beautiful, smart, caring, and have a heart of gold. But the other side of my brain is constantly winning with the negative thoughts that always tend to creep their way up to the forefront of my brain. You aren't good enough, no one will ever love you the way you desire to be loved, you're disgusting. I just wish it was a class, teacher, or cheat code that could simply teach me how to learn to love myself. I had just about given up hope on happiness that is until I met him.