Hidden Desire

Intramuros Day Trip

It was Tuesday, dahil maaga ang call time namin ni Bianca, sa Condo kami nagstay kagabi after ng dinner sa Manila Bay. We woke up around 4 a.m. nagwork out kami at pagtapos ay nagbreakfast na kami. Tiyak ko na mahaba nanaman ang araw namin. Midterm is in swing, we missed the first day kahapon dahil nga may bisita ang department namin. As I sat in my study table, finishing final touches on my project for Central habang hinihintay ko si Bianca matapos mag-bihis, another message from Babs popped up.

Babs: Rhi, please give me another shot. I promise you won't regret it. 🙁

Me: Babs, super busy week kami ngayon. Sorry, can't talk about this rn. ✌🙁 Text me, you know my number naman, I'll let you know if I'm free.

I muted his account so I could work in peace. I've been thinking about us too. Naisip kong bigyan siya ng isa pang chance. After all we were young when this happened. But a part of me says no. I was checking the layouts and approving them, for posting online as well as the posters around campus. Katext ko ngayon si Derick from our department about Bianca's Psych Night. It is her project for now that I am busy sa Central, the term is about to end in 2 months at time is of the essence para maexecute ito ni Bianca. Pinaka mahirap na ang pagiinvite nya ng bands and musical acts as we don't have any budget for this, we could pay out of our own pockets but that would be unfair to us. Mabuti na lang at may mga kakilala kami na mga bands who can perform for free just because we are friends with them. Most of them just wanted to perform para mahasa ang skills nila.

After a few minutes, I heard Bianca knock on my guest room. Yes, I used this room and left her in our room last night. Ayaw ko na kasing makatabi ito sa pagtulog ko, changes came a week after that night she said I should try to love someone else apart from myself. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit nasaktan ako sa sinabi nya sa akin that night, that no matter what I say or do, she has hurt me iyon na ang breaking point ng pagiging parang mag-jowa namin ni Bianca, mula nun although we are okay, I never really felt okay. Gets? Anyway, she calls out from the door.

"Babe, tara?" She smiled at me.

I only nodded at her as I locked my laptop screen and left the laptop on top of the study table. Taking my phone with me. Tanging ID and Lanyard, Wallet, Shades at Phone lang ang dala ko. Talk about minimalism, I didn't even bother to bring my make-up kit. Ito yung araw na literal sumuko na ako. Wala akong paki-alam sa buhay. Ganun ang peg ko today.

We were wearing our custom college shirts from Psychology Department, again may naka-print nanamang last name namin sa likod. Color Black and Light Blue ang college shirts namin, this time, we paired it with Khakis and a comfortable sneaker. Typical College attire. I had a sling bag where my wallet, phone and shades are stored. The sun is out, so talagang kailangan ko ang shades. Lalo na pag naglakad kami mamaya.

We were supposed to meet the students sa main lobby ng school namin, which is the Tech Building. Where we will be waiting for the FEU Bus to shuttle us to Intramuros. I brought my car kahit na 10 minutes lang by foot ang condo ko sa school, I plan to go home to Q.C. tonight. Bahala na si Bianca kung saan siya magstay mamaya, she could stay at my condo, wala namang problema sa akin. I just honestly need some time alone to myself to re-charge and I'm sure she would understand. After 5 minutes, we were at the Morayta entrance of our school. We parked my car inside the school parking lot and proceeded to the Tech Building. Dito kami nag-antay sa FEU Bus. I mingled with the Chicago Students, nagtatanungan kami ng mga interests at experiences namin ng biglang nagpasikat nanaman si Glaiza. She gave an impromptu performance to the students as we waited for the bus. 

She strummed her guitar as she looked at me, we formed a half circle to hear her sing. As if she was saying that the song she was about to sing is dedicated to me. It was a familiar song, I would know it because it's from one of this generations popular OPM Rock bands called I belong to the zoo, song name was Courage. Then she takes a deep breath and once she exhales, words started to flow from her mouth.