X out Hannah Baker & Insert Jahseh Onfroy in your head 🖤.
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Lora
There I was laying in my bed stuck in deep thought again. I didn't feel like going to school. I didn't feel like eating nor sleeping. Ever since he committed suicide I wanted to go soon after.
I never knew how much he was truly hurting.
Literally every more I sat up on the edge of my bed and talked to Jahseh like he was my everything. Even though I wasn't in the mood. The words just began to flood the room as if some one was there listen.
'I never knew how important you were until I lost you and I'm sorry. I can't stress that enough Jahseh and that's why It hurts me so much.'
I closed my eyes trying not to cry my eyes out as the sound of silence begins to get to me even more.
'I...I can't even sleep,eat,talk,walk, nothing without you. I just feel weak and depressed all the time. My mom has me in therapy. She's concerned about my mentally health but you know how much I hate therapist. They make you seem crazier than you actually are.' I paused for a second sniffling.
'I love you Jahseh. Please come back some how.' I say in a sadden manner.
I proceeded to lay back down until a sudden face alarms me. When I turned my back against the wall there he was.
Rubbing my eyes constantly tear began to flow. I began to think this was nothing but a dream.
'Stop being a pussy. What I use to tell you about crying and shit? I told you I'll always be there.' He says sounding like his old self.
'I...-' I stared
'Just shut up and come here.' He says pulling me into a hug making me cry even more. I missed him.
'Why did you do it Jah? Why did you leave me like this?'
'I couldn't take it. Nobody cared any way.' He says
'What do you mean! I cared! I was here all along!' I yelled causing my mom to burst in.
'Ugh here you go again talking to yourself.' She says
'Mom! I'm not-' I started
'Nope don't even start. Put your clothes on we going to this damn therapy appointment. I'll just call you in for school and let them know you're not coming once again.' She says looking a bit disappointed. 'Get dressed.' She says closing my door.
'See look what you just made me do?!' I say burying my face into my hands. I look up to see no one there.
Am I seeing shit or was that really Jahseh I was just talking to? I was so speechless and confused all I could do was stare blankly at the walls and cry hoping whoever I was talking to would come back or just bring me back my Jahseh.
