We Are the Normal Ones: Memoirs of a Fallen Human

Lost Memo #4: Questions Existing

Year: 2016
(8 days after diagnosis)

I am upset.
I am sad.
I am angry.
I am a defect on society.
the more I read about bipolar disorder, the angrier I get because that's everything I am.
That's my whole personality.
I wish I never got checked.
I want to take it all back.
They want to "fix" me.
How are you supposed to feel when you are told that everything that makes you unique and special and you, is a mistake. An imperfection.
A defect.
I am impulsive.
I am hyper.
I am different.
I liked who I am.
I really did.
But now?
They are going to fix me.
They want to change me.
I'm "not normal".
Everything I am is bipolar.
What will happen to ME once they fix me?
Will I still be creative?
Will I still be funny?
Will I still be fun?
Different? Out of the box?
Do I owe my creativeness to my bipolar?
Will I still be able to write?
Will I still be me?