His Property

Chapter 43 - Lori's Diary (A short episode)

Lori's Diary

Dear Diary,
   These past days, I feel so nauseous. Kaninang umaga lang pagkagising ko ay nasuka ako. I also missed my period. Natakot ako bigla kaso kanina lang I checked, may spot. I can relax now. Tatlong araw na lang bago ang graduation namin. I'm scared... I think I need to tell Athan about the debt. I don't want to leave him, but I'm also afraid of the consequences if I don't follow what we talked about. Hindi ko rin naman gustong madamay si Athan dito. It breaks my heart just thinking about leaving him behind. But I need to! I can't believe myself! To think that the one my family has debt to is also a vampire. I just can't leave him because I love him so much. His smiles, I will miss those. Argh. Nagiging moody nanaman ako. I can't deal with these mood swings I'm having. Am I always like this? Alright, just wait a minute. I think I'm going to vomit again.

    I think I heard something outside the bathroom. I checked it out kahit na nahihilo ako at nasusuka pa rin. Siguro imagination ko lang 'yun atsaka baka 'yung mga alaga ko lang 'yun. Nasa unit ni Athan sila Knox, Beau, at Rider. Kumusta na kaya sila? Emi's missing in action. O baka nasa unit din siya ni Athan ngayon? I think I saw someone in my balcony. Lumabas ako pero wala naman. Umihip ang malamig na hangin at dumampi ito sa pisngi ko. So refreshing. Good night na diary.

Dear Diary,
    Tomorrow's the big day. Finally! Ga-graduate na ako! Athan's also proud of me. Kaninang umaga, may nakita akong letter sa bedside table ko. It was from that mysterious vampire, my savior. It reads "I finally found you. You're not going off anywhere. I will get you no matter where you go. I know you're planning to tell him about me. Don't. Or I'll make sure you'll both pay". This is... A threat, right? Speaking of, I tried telling Athan yesterday pero busy siya at ayaw ko namang guluhin siya sa sarili kong problema. Alright, I'm not going to tell him. Just don't drag him with this. Mas okay na ang isipin niyang masama ako dahil iiwanan ko siya ng walang paalam kaysa naman sa masama pa siya sa gulong nagawa ng mga parents ko. Well, I don't blame them though. To be exact, iniwanan nila ako ng ganong kalaking halaga ng pera but he refused that as a payment. Prick.

     I came to a conclusion about my sickness. Am I pregnant or am I just imagining things? Athan's at the academy right now. He told me to not go outside without his consent. What can I do? Syempre being the hard-headed I am, lalabas pa rin ako. Isang paraan lang para malaman ang totoo. I went to the nearest convenience store. I grabbed two pregnancy test stick and some chips. I'm craving for some blueberries too. Glad thing may confectionery sila dito at nagtitinda pa ng kaunting cakes. I bought a slice of blueberry cheesecake. Balisa pa ako nang ako na ang nasa counter. Buti na lang mabait 'yung tindera. She congratulated me kahit na hindi pa sure. While I was walking back home, I sensed something. Parang may nagmamata sa'kin kaya binilisan ko ang lakad ko. I got home safely. Now, I'm going to test kung positive ba.

      I followed all the instructions on how to use the stick. After some time, tinignan ko ulit kung postive ba. There are two lines coming out the test window pero medyo hindi clear yung isa. It's opaque. For the second time, I used the second stick I bought. It came... POSITIVE! Oh my god! I'm going to be a mother? H-how? Paano na nito? Should I call Athan? No, busy sila sa academy. When should I tell him about what I'm carrying in my womb? Paano na ang gagawin ko? Tomorrow is also the day that I'm going to be taken away from him. Diary, sa'tin lang muna ito. Sasabihin ko rin kay Athan ito. I need to clear my mind. Nabasa ko dati sa isang article na bawal magpa-stress ang mga buntis. I'm going to be a mom!

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