It's Me And Not You

22

Dan's POV

Rachel and I walk down to my living room. I know where this thing is going now. But I don't want to treat Rachel the same way as my previous girlfriends. Today was our second date and I am already jumping into bed with her.

But in my defense, my previous relationships were purely physical. I did not even ask them on dates. I made my intentions clear at the start and I would just take the girls to one of my hotels.

We reach the living room. Rachel does not waste anytime. She kisses me and our kiss becomes heated. 

Sparks are everywhere in my body. I feel like I am on fire.  I have never wanted a woman like I want her right now.

Rachel breaks the kiss and she removes my t-shirt, I bend my head to make it easy for her.

She is in charge at the moment as I am battling with myself as to whether I should go through with this.

She moans. That seems to loosen my restraints and I pick her up. She wraps her legs around my waist. And I kiss her hard, pouring all these extreme emotions I am feeling for her into the kiss.

"Rachel, are you sure about this. I don't want you to do something that you will regret."

"No talking please."  She counters.

 I start unzipping her dress but something is warning me that I am not thinking straight. Rachel kisses my neck on the spot that drives me insane.

I moan. But that voice comes back again.

"You will loose her if you do this." That felt like a bucket of ice cold water.

I stop unzipping her dress and I put her down. 

I can see the rejection on her face. And I just want to punch myself. But I know that If I want to have a lasting relationship with Rachel. 

I have to get the playboy image she has about me out of her mind. And if I give into my desires right now. That goal will be harder to achieve.

" I'm sorry Rachel, I can't do this today."

" Are you not attracted to me?"

Is this woman out of her mind. Does she know how hard this is for me.

"I take a step closer to her and I hold her in my arms."

"Rachel, I am doing this for the both of us. I really, really want to make love to you right now."

"What is stopping you then?" She looks less pissed now. Progress.

" All my previous relationships have been purely physical. I want something different from you Rachel. I need more." 

I hope my declaration does n't freak her out.

She is looking at me as if she has seen a ghost. I brush my thumb on her cheek. I tilt her head so that she could look straight into my eyes and see that I'm serious about this.

"Talk to me angel eyes."

She is usually very talkative but I have rendered her speechless.

"Ok" She finally speaks. I will take that response for now. I knew the moment I laid my eyes on her that she was different.

Tonight is the first time I have admitted out loud that I want more from her. I know my feelings are growing stronger every time I see her.

 I did also plant the seed over our chats during the week that if she want to date me. She must be prepared to deal with the media. She didn't seem alarmed.

I kiss her nose then her forehead. I checked my watch and it is already past midnight.

"It is late now. And I don't feel comfortable for you to drive home. I think you should spend the night here."

"For someone who suddenly decided to become celibate. Are you sure it is a good idea."

"Thank you for the concern Miss Smith. But I thought for my own health, you could use one of the spare bedrooms here."

"Your funeral." Rachel says.

 I put on my t-shirt.

"Just making sure that you are not tempted." I wink at her. But I think she is right, this is my funeral. How I am going to sleep knowing that she here in my apartment.

I show Rachel her room and I kiss her goodnight. 

After that I go straight to my room and I take a cold shower.

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Rachel is kissing me passionately. Dan I can't wait anymore.Please make love to me. I throw her on top of my bed. I take off my t-shirt. I start kissing her entire body. She smells so good.

"Dan , Dan" She moans.  

"Daniel!!!" What did I do now. Why is she screaming at me. She is shaking me as well.

When I open my eyes, I realise that my bedside light is on and Rachel is now sitting on my bed.

She is shivering. That brings me back to my senses. 

"Rachel, what is wrong?" I look at her trying to assess what the matter is. But it looks like she is cold.

"I'm sorry for disturbing your sleep. But I am freezing and I could n't figure out your high tech air-con system."

"Are you sure that is the only reason you are here."  I smirk

Rachel hits me with her elbow.

"Ouch,what was that for?"

"Pervert"  

I laugh. 

"I'm sorry, I should have adjusted the air-con for you."

" I am not going back to that freezer, can I sleep here with you?"

" Please do, you will turn my dream into a reality."

She looks confused. I move over to make more space from the side she is sitting at.

"I promise I will keep my hands to myself , I wont tempt you to break your celibacy."

"I am not worried about you, I don't think I will be able to stick to that rule."  

As if the universe is out to get me. I can see her nipples on my t-shirt.

This is going to be a long night.

Rachel gets in the bed besides me and I can't help myself. I pull her close to me and she lays her head on my chest.

I kiss her on top of the head and I switch off the bedside lamp.

"Goodnight Rachel"

"Night" She sounds sleepy. How is she falling asleep so easily? 

Whilst for me it's like trying to melt ice in the Arctic.

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