His Fanboy | p.jm + k.th [DISCONTINUED]

| THIRTY THREE |

"Why did you ignore me, Jimin?"

Taehyung switched his eyes do look at Jimin who was looking at the moon. The moonlight was showering up Jimin making him look like an angel. His skin was glowing thought it had some small pimples and facial hairs. His eyes were shining, there was indeed no need for the stars.

Jimin sighed and looked at Taehyung. "I didn't Taehyung.. I thought all of these is a dream. All what you did meant a lot to me. How our chats made me laugh, how your words made up my sad moods, how your weird jokes made my day.. they all meant to me so much,"

Jimin smiled and inhaled deeply. "And after all that, after you confessed me that you're really my idol- I couldn't really feel anything. I mean, it's not bad but you know.. I started to feel who am I to keep talking to you like that. So that's why I tried avoiding you. Actually I didn't mean to, but I didn't have any choice."

"And why do you think you're nobody?" Taehyung's expression got serious as his eyes darkened. Jimin swallowed and looked into Taehyung's eyes; now it's the time.

"I used to feel down alot. I was abounded by my family. And thanks to you all, I could still have hope and move on to where I am today. My family never cared about me, but you all did. And the sad thing is, they just treat me like this like I'm not their child anymore because of something I didn't even do,"

"What is it, Jimin?"

Jimin sighed again and Taehyung could clearly see his eyes getting glossy. Taehyung internally panicked and held Jimin's hands and rubbed smooth circles using his thumbs. "It's okay. You don't have to tell me if you don't like,"

"No, Tae. You all helped me to go though this so you have to know. I had an older brother named Jihyun. We were so close that time, really close. He got his licenses and took us on a ride for the first time. I was seated at the front with him and-"

Jimin chocked on a sod as his tears fell down his cheeks. Taehyung couldn't watch his precious angel crying, it made his eyes glossy too. But he held back his tears, he didn't want to sadden Jimin more.

"And we fought over for some stupid songs and- we got hit and he- he died.. And my parents just.. made me the wrong person and started treating me like no one. It just hurt so bad- my brother died and I blamed my self for a long long time for that.. And I'm still alive because of you,"

Jimin faintly smiled, Taehyung holding Jimin's hands tightly than ever. It was so relaxing that Jimin felt secure than ever; protected and loved.

"Since it was all thanks to you all, I thought that I'm no one to be on the same level as you and to keep talking to you as if it doesn't matter. It was hard for me, Taehyung. I'm sorry,"

Taehyung was trying his best to hold back his tears. He tried hard not to show Jimin his weak side, Jimin mattered a lot to him that all he wanted to be a strength for him.

"Jimin-ah, what if I told you that I'm just like you?"

Jimin looked at Taehyung with puppy eyes, his eyes were sparkling with the tears with were pooling inside them. "Huh?"

Taehyung sadly smiled and looked at Jimin fondly, "Jimin, there's nothing makes me different than you. I'm human, you're human. Don't ever think that the state we're in is different because it's not. Mind if I tell that I have the same problem as you, huh?"

"Huh?"

Taehyung chuckled, "Yes, that's true. I do have blamed myself for how long I didn't even know. I do love being an Idol but I'm just sad that people only get to see my personality I show infront of the camera. It's worse because most of the time I don't show my true self because I can't. If I do that, I'll lose my reputation and the image I have created as BTS V. And I didn't want to dissapoint my fans, I knew that they expect something from me andnI couldn't go against that responsibility,"

Taehyung leaned in, looking into the shy eyes of Jimin, his voice getting soft and smooth. " I do have flaws and mistakes in me, Jimin. It's probably worse than you because I'm an idol and I can never live up to my true self. Do you know that there were times when I wanted to run away and quit? I couldn't do ot because if I do that, the society won't accept me. That feeling when you're left woth no choice but to keep that fake personality of yours is.. weird you know,"

Both Jimin and Taehyung laughed, Taehyung showing off his boxy smile and Jimin his eye smile. It was a perfect match lieke their intertwined hands too.

Jimin couldn't just believe what he heard from Taehyung just a while ago. Sure he did knew that it was pressuring to be an idol, but hearing it from Taehyung just made him feel how tough their lives is. On the other side, Jimin thought how shameful that he blamed himself for years when he could simply convenience his parents and make things up. It's a different story that he didn't have the courage to do that but when it comes to Taehyung, he was in a more deep situation than Jimin.

Jimin admired how Taehyung was strong to handle all of the pressure by himself. Inside Jimin's heart, rhe respect which was there for his idol was growing so mcuh.

He just wanted to hug him so tightly and whisper his ears that he's proud of him and thank you for doing everything to make other's lives better.

So he did. He too leaned in and hugged Taehyung tightly as much as he could. Jimin could feel Taehyung melting into the hug and his extremely fast heartbeat. Taehyung too was hugging back Jimin, rubbing circles on his back.

It was a precious moment of understanding, love and care for both of them.

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