Should I Tell? / l.h

Chapter 10

He can't be serious. He must be joking with me or something because Luke can't like me. Why would he like me? And why all of a sudden? Why now? How come he is only just telling me this now, why not before he started hanging out with April if he knew she liked him? Why do I get the feeling that this is some joke of his and he's just using me? I've heard he's done this before, told a girl he liked her, took her out on dates, made everything seem perfect and then he either breaks their heart or humiliates them, which I don't want either of them to happen. I won't let it. So how do I know he actually likes me?

"Lex? You okay?" oh right, Luke and the cafe, crap were still at the cafe! I must have zoned out because I completely forgot

"er yeah, I'm fine, I'm just" I can't even finish my sentence, I don't know what to say

"shocked" he must be able to read me like a book,

"yeah, you could say that" I'm speechless, I literally don't know what to say to him

"I was kind of expecting you to react like this" he doesn't seem surprised at my reaction, he seems disappointed

"like what?"

"shocked, speechless" so he was expecting this?

"why tell me now and here, I mean you could have chose a better place, somewhere like your house" he's laughing again, why does he keep laughing

"well, I chose here because if I chose my house you would have got suspicious and thought that something was wrong and I didn't want you worried and, I chose now because it took hanging out with April for me to realise" he took the biggest breath before carrying on "for me to realise that I like you"

Okay, he has now actually said it and it still doesn't feel real, I just don't know whether to believe him

"Lex, will you please answer me"

"I would if I knew what to say" I'm going to be honest with him, I mean he is with me

"Just tell me what you're thinking"

if only he knew what I was thinking, if only I knew what I was thinking, I would tell him but for once I don't actually know, or do I?

"I'm thinking that I have a very big decision to make"

And before I knew it, I was up and out of the cafe leaving Luke behind, calling Calum.