Should I Tell? / l.h

Chapter 25

Did I hear him right? Did he really just say what I think he said? I can't form a sentence, I'm speechless. I'm staring right at him, wanting to say everything that's on my mind, tell him I choose him too and that I want him too but I can't.

"you what?!" as much as I want to believe him, something doesn't seem right

"I know this must seem crazy and out of the blue but it's true, I do, I chose you a long time ago Lexie, it just took me a while to realise it" Marley is standing there, unsure of what to do, as am, what do I say now?

"I'm erm, gonna go, I think you guys need to do some talking" she laughs slightly and as she walks past me, she whispers into my ear 'I told you' and it was the smuggest face I had ever seen, but she was right

"Luke I - I don't know what to say"

"you don't have to do or say anything, unless you want to" if he knows me by now he knows I want to say something and I have a lot to say, it's just whether I have the guts to say them or not

"but I do, I have so much to say Luke,"

"then say it" I don't even know what I'm about to say, but I didn't expect I'd be saying anything to Luke

"why didn't you call? you could have text me even, but you didn't. I waited for you, I felt so stupid Luke, waiting for someone who I thought didn't want me, so why now? because if you said that to me a week ago, I would have ran straight to you but now - but now everything's changed"

"why has everything changed? just because I didn't tell you a week ago, I'm sorry that I weren't ready a week ago but I am now" he seems so certain of what he's saying but how do I know that it's not just part of the act

"it took you a week to realise that you actually liked me and that you wanted 'something' with me" I hate that word 'something' because it can quickly turn into nothing, he nods his head in response "well, while it took you a week to realise, I've known for months, yep I've liked you for months Luke, there I said it." he seems surprised that it's been this long

"you've - you've liked me for months and didn't tell me? why?"

"why'd you think? you weren't the easiet person for me to talk to, and then when I was ready to tell you April confessed first that she liked you so I left it because well, I thought I had no chance and then that's when Calum asked me out and I used him as a distraction, I just thought that I had became so wound up in you that I needed a distraction and Calum seemed like the perfect opportunity for it, but I need a distraction, I needed you and it took me Calum to realise it"

"Lex, I didn't know that, I genuinely thought you didn't like me and Calum got it into my head that you didn't and then after that fight I stopped hanging around with Calum and that's when I realised, I've known for a while that I like you, I just didn't admit it" he's blushing, I guess this isn't something he does often but neither do I,
"give me one more chance Lex, please"

"I don't know Luke, I just - " I'm cut off by Luke's begging and pleads

"please Lexie, I promise I won't run or listen to Calum and we'll do it right this time, no interruptions, just us" I can't take this anymore, he clouds my judgement and I forget why I'm mad at him

"okay, but you have to do something first" he nods willingly, like he'll do anything I'll tell him to "kiss me" and before the words have left my mouth, Luke's hands have cupped my cheeks, at first he kisses me gently, but then harshly. The kiss is desperate, it's what we've both wanted for what seems like forever.