Should I Tell? / l.h

Chapter 39

"Luke I have to speak to April" I've been arguing over the phone with Luke for the past half hour about the same thing, over an over again.

"No Lexie, we don't need anymore drama, don't you think we've had enough?"

"yes we have but I need to sort this out Luke, April is going to ruin everything if I don't speak to her" I haven't told him about it yet and I don't plan on it, if I just sort things out with April he doesn't need to know,

"if you just tell me what it is we can sort it out together"

"no Luke, I need to sort this out by myself I'm sorry" and with that I hung up, I don't like the idea of hanging up on him but we were just going round in circles and I needed to stop.
After what Marley told me I haven't been able to think straight, I asked myself so many questions as to why April would do this, jealously? hate? a misunderstanding? and the only way I'm going to find out is if I speak to her.

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I knocked on the door an waited for it to open. Usually I would just walk in but I don't feel welcome here anymore. It's a couple of minutes before Aprils mum comes to the door,

"Oh hello dear, it's been a while since you've been, please, come in" her mother was always polite but very persuasive and I found myself stepping inside, "Aprils upstairs if you want to head up, is she expecting you? she didn't mention it otherwise I would have cooked you some dinner" she looks at me with pleading eyes but I couldn't possibly stay for dinner, I plan on leaving after having a roaring match with her daughter,

"no I'm sorry to come unannounced Mrs Collins but I won't be staying long, I've only came to quickly speak to April" I put on my best smile and headed up the stairs, I always liked Aprils mum, she let me stay when things got bad at home and it's a shame I probably won't be seeing her anymore.

"What are you doing here?!" I didn't bother knocking and barged straight through the door,

"we need to talk" I simply said, there was no hesitation in my voice and I suddenly feel powerful, April was usually the demanding one,

"go on then, I'm sure you have a lot to say" she said a smirk on her face that I wanted to slap right off,

"firstly, why are you threatening my relationship with Luke and secondly, why are you using my past against me? I trusted you with that April?!" her smirk keeps growing and so does my infuriation with her,

"basic lesson of life, you never know you can trust and I knew that if I thrown your past at you, you wouldn't risk it, you wouldn't risk people finding out to be with him, you would rather protect your parents then being with him" she seems so sure of what she's saying, but if only she knew that's not the case,

"well you're wrong because I am risking it and don't think for a second that I trust you" I watched as the smirk left her mouth and instead it formed an 'o' shape,

"you're with him?" she stammered and I found myself laughing,

"of course I'm with him, you're little plan didn't work April, but what I want to know is why you did it?" I feel like a detective of a crime scene,

"you want to know why I did it?" I nod my head because that's what I've just asked, "I did it because I don't want you to be with Luke, it's not fair" how childish,

"do you know how much of a brat your being right now? Listen to yourself, trying to ruin your former best friends relationship because you think it's not fair? Enlighten me on how you think it's not fair" she is ridiculous,

"I was jealous okay? I hate the fact that Luke likes you an not me, I mean c'mon Lex you seriously thought he would like you? because I didn't and when he chose you over me, I was so angry" I try to feel sympathy for her but I can't,

"it still gives you no right to threaten our relationship, you know about my past April an you don't have the right to go around telling people because you're not happy"

"he's not good for you Lex, I mean it, I'm trying to protect you, I'm not the bad guy here" I'm fed up of people telling me that Luke is no good for me, that is my decision and people should stop interfering,

"well you don't need to 'protect' me and even so, you think telling people that my father was an abusive alcoholic is going to solve anything?" she stares at me blankly, for once she has nothing to say and I have a lot, if only I had prepared myself for losing my best friend after what I'm about to say,
"you disgust me April, I can't believe that you would do such a thing after I trusted you, you have no right to share that information with anyone" I started to raise my voice, I could feel my pulse quickening with the anger fueled inside, "I don't ever want to see you again, do you understand? you've pushed me to my limits and this is it, I could handle you being jealous and I could handle you being spiteful but what I can't candle is you being a liar and traitor, so we are no longer friends because I can no longer trust you." I stopped to catch my breath before walking out, but before I did, I had one last thing to say,
"Oh and next time you try to threaten me or my family, I won't hesitate to kick your ass"