Should I Tell? / l.h

Chapter 12

Calum is on his way round and I'm going to tell him. I don't know exactly what I'm going to say to him but I have to, I can't keep stringing him along letting him think I like him when in fact, I like Luke and it just took going out with Calum for me to realise it.

Ten minutes later and I'm opening the door to Calum, a very confused looking Calum.

"hey, is everything okay? you seemed pretty worried on the phone?"

"I'm fine, we just need to talk" He followed me into the living room with an even more concerning look on his face, I feel bad for what's about to happen

"that sentence is never good, have I done something to upset you or something? cause if I have, I'm apologising now"

"no you've done nothing, you've done absolutely nothing and this is gonna sound cliche an everything but this is all on me and I need you to listen and not interrupt me, please" I had to say please otherwise I'd sound like a complete bitch which I'm about to be and I already feel guilty about it

"okay I won't interrupt but you're really worrying me Lexie" he's so innocent and has no clue what's about to happen

"okay, here it goes, remember that night we all went the cinemas and you walked me home because Marley told you I liked you?" he nodded but I don't think he knows why "well, I didn't, well not at that point anyway but after you walked me home and I agreed to go out with you, I was going to cancel but you were so charming and I figured I should give you a chance since you were trying so hard, but"

"but what? sorry"

"no it's okay, but, I actually liked someone else first and Marley got the wrong impression, so I figured I'd go out with you to see if I actually did like this other person or whether I just thought I did and that I needed to see someone else to get over them"

"and that someone else was me?" why do I feel like I've just broke his heart? Probably because I have. I just nodded, I couldn't say anything else

"I'm sorry, I didn't want to use you in that way but every time I was with you I forgot about him and then you kissed me which just confused me even more but then, I went to the cafe with him and it was then I realised that I did like him and as soon as I realised I left and phoned you, to tell you everything"

"and that's supposed to make me feel better is it?"

"well no but I thought"

"but you thought what? that I wouldn't mind because we've only been on one date? That nothing's really happened between us so it wouldn't matter whether you broke my heart or not?! Well it does matter Lexie, it matters a lot" I did not see that coming

"Calum I'm sorry, I didn't mean for this to happen, I didn't know it mattered to you so much?"

"Of course it matters to me Lex, I've liked you for as long as I can remember so when Marley told me you might like me, of course I jumped in on the offer to walk you home, I thought I might of actually had a chance with you but I guess I clearly don't"

"Calum, I'm really sorry, I didn't know you felt that way" I can't believe he actually liked me for so long?

"who is it?"

"what?" who's he talking about?

"who's the lucky guy who you happen to like?" oh, that.

"I, err, don't think you wanna know" I can't tell him it's Luke, he'll hate me and Luke

"I do, so tell me" he doesn't look upset now, he just looks angry

"it's erm, it's, Luke" I almost whisper, hoping he won't hear me

"no, not Luke, not Luke as in one of my best friends Luke" I shouldn't have told him

"yes" I definitely shouldn't have told him

"you've got to be kidding me, you used me to try and get over my best friend?!"

"yes, Cal I'm really sorry okay?"

"no, it's not okay Lexie, I'm gonna kill him, he knew, he knew I liked you!" And just as he stormed out and headed for the door, the one person who definitely should not have been there was standing face to face with Calum, and I could only imagine what would happen next.