I woke up with a massive headache. It felt like my brain was about to explode. I don't remember what had happened last night an I don't want to anyways. I looked at my phone and saw it was 9:30am thank god we don't have school today or I would have been in a lot of trouble.
I got up and took medicine then took a shower. I changed into comfy clothes and sat in bed staring out my window watching the trees move with the wind. It started to rain, the way the water hit the window causing it to make loud thuds. My phone dinged an it was from Shea. I honestly have no idea how she has my phone number.
Shea- Hey girl! Just want you to know that the next time your with Colby your head is chopped off! I don't understand why won't you just die! Obviously no one wants you! Just go slice your hands off! Xoxo Shea!
I threw my phone at the window causing a loud crash. Shea had a point I should just die I should just kill myself. I got up put shoes on and a hoodie. I walked outside I let the water hit my face. I walked to my favorite spot, the lake were me Sam and Colby would hangout. I sat on the bench were me and Colby had our first kiss. I took a deep breath in I remembered all the great times we had here. Memories flooded into my head. I knew where my next spot was, the field. I walked to the field where I was raped. I then remembered the horror or brought to me. I got up and walked to the last place where I felt happy. The ice cream shop. The place where me and Colby would always go. We would fight over what ice cream flavor we should get. I missed this, I missed being happy. I missed being with Colby everyday laughing and enjoying life. I wanted to feel free and happy. I walked home at this point the rain picked up it was pouring I was soaked. I walked inside I walked into my room changed into more comfy clothes and grabbed papers and pens. I wrote four letters, the first one for the blood hounds, the second one for Colby, the third one for Shea, and the fourth one for Sam.
Dear Blood Hounds,
By the time you read this I'm dead, I did this because you treated me like shit. You took my friends and changed them into monsters. I will never forgive you for what you did. I hope your happy now, one girl down many more to go. Goodbye blood hounds.
Xoxo, Y/n
Dear Colby,
Cole Robert Brock, what do I say. I hope you understand that when you left I changed. I used to be the happiest girl ever. You made me happy. You brought sunshine when I felt sad. You brought the joy to me when no one else did. You make me happy. Then you left. You left me to go do drugs and drink. I told you not too! I told you that you shouldn't. You didn't listen. No one listens to a good girl. No one likes a good girl. You never like good girls. I want you to know that you may be a bad boy but, I'm in love with you! I love you so much and you make me happy!
Xoxo, Y/n
Dear Shea,
I hope your your happy now! I hope you feel accomplished and proud that I'm gone! I hope you feel great and happy. I know I was never happy when I was around you. You are the number one reason why I did what I did. I have nothing else to say beside thanks for taking my happiness. Goodbye.
Xoxo, Y/n
Dear Sam,
Sam Golbach, god! Your my best friend, I love you so much. I will miss you and your my rock and mean everything to me. I hope you are able to pursue your dream. I'll be by your side even if I'm not here. I'll be cheering for you. I love you Sam and I always will. Goodbye my little sunflower.
Xoxo, Y/n
That was the last letter. I put the letters on my desk. I layed out everything nicely. I made my bed. I walked into the bathroom grabbed the box of razors and placed them next to me.
⚠️SELF HARM! ⚠️
I grabbed a razor took a deep breath in and cut one straight line. I took another cut this one for Colby, number three for Shea, number four for Sam, number five for the blood hounds, number six for the school, and number seven for my family. I watched the blood pour out of my arm. I watched my vision blur out. Before I blacked out someone busted down the door, I then fell.
⚠️END OF SELF HARM⚠️
A/n- So I know I said the depressing part would be in part 4 but I know how part 4 is going to play out. See ya soon!
