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Ch 11 She's Ours!

NICOLAE!

She returned, her time alone in the woods didn't make her want to run off again.  I'm relieved that she returned, but once again she needed me to help her and I couldn't hear her screams! 

How pissed off am I at myself as I growl throwing a few novel books across the library floor! 

her screams calling for me to help her, I thought I was reliving a memory for a moment. 

vampires don't relive moments they forget them and move on or so I have lived with the idea of that notion for far too long and yet this time here I sit pissed that I thought I was " just hearing things". because as long as she stays in the castles protective barriers  she would be fine. but I underestimated her reaching the back borders where there are just cliff faces. 

Lori coming back to warn her and us was a stupid idea yet one that I appreciate. that little spoiled brat could have jeopardized it all. I don't know rather be grateful or annoyed at her lack of  " thought process" either way  I am grateful my little sister is trying to make up for a past she didn't mean to have happened,  still being the only alley within enemy doors is a  win on our part and one I look to keep secret. 

the castle has become quite now, everyone in there cambers resting I'm sure. the guards that didn't know of Simoes' being outside the walls have well more than paid and are doing the grim cleaning of the castle for the servants, fair punishment for a few days. Had it been farther they would have died. I sigh knowing I value life above all else and can't find it in me to kill for no reason. 

Drogo is at war with me over her and this whole mess. 

Sebastian isn't saying much either but I can feel his soul turning for a conclusion to it all. 

Peter, thankfully Peter was there tonight and had her safely back in the castle. He left her room quite rapidly suggesting he hasn't tried anything with her. knowing we are all on edge I think it best we keep our distance from now on. 

I start to think that maybe this, her, we are going about it in the wrong way. We should court her giver her the chance to chose as she sees fit and let each one of us show her our true self. or at least the better one if she was in it. 

I sigh, knowing I more than love her. not knowing what the others think or feel but if there are inchanted like I am even a little then they are feeling her magical pull towards us and wanting to react to it.  This for sure will be a battle of wits and decorum to say the less. 

I guess let the best .. umm! person win I tell my self knowing I want to march right into her room and make her see. 

See that She is mine! solely. 

I sigh harder this time running my hand over my face and clearing my head of such thoughts. 

sitting there in the library I stare blankly at the book filled shelved row to row, floor to ceiling.

I need to speak with the men of this castle, letting them know what I have decided best for her. I will not allow any of them to play unfair or unkind. but I will allow them there owe clear shot.  

I rub my temples, both hands firmly on my face and head messaging. I want to stop this thinking this weak moment, I need to get back to my duties and soon. forcing myself to get up I take the books I had been reading and place them back. I haven't found any information on her type or bloodline. this is all new to us and everyone is relying on me to figure it out, or at least fill in the gasp we know nothing about yet. 

the truth of her mother, her bloodline and this curse she now deals with was something I knew she would need time to deal with, handle and process. but being gone all day from the time she ran off. had me at my weakest. I  couldn't think let alone hear anything else except what was in my head and if she was ok to come back.