FORBIDDEN

Ch 85 Caved

The cave had been damp but it didn't matter it wasn't like I could catch a cold or anything. After all, I was a vampire hybrid "undead, dead" I whispered to myself scoffing at the very words and wondering how the hell I had gotten my life to fall into this kind of a whirlwind of life. I was just trying to survive now I am trying to repair things. WTF!! why did I have to go down that path that day and let myself get caught?

I sighed for a second then smiled remember DROGO's Eyes the moment he saw me, the moment he finally let me into his mind and world, the moment we finally had each other. AHH! for whatever reason I wanted him more then I wanted anyone else right now. I mean Id take Sebastian too but Drogo had something about him that I couldn't describe that seemed to calm me. Maybe because he was a walking anger ball so I never had to fake my feelings or emotions around him he just got it.

I lowered my face back into my arms warming by the fire as it still burned hot.

I wasn't planning to go home anytime soon, I would let them stew in there bull shit for a while longer.

I did feel it was fair that I link them and let them know I was fine.

"I'm fine, just leave me alone" I linked and cutting it off before any of them could find me or reply back.

I heard a howl mile's and miles off from where I was it was faint but I knew it was Sebastian's wolf an he wasn't going to take that for an okay answer if he found me first I have no idea what would happen. 

laying here on the cold wet damp floor of the cave, the fire hasn't let up but it hasn't been keeping me warmer any.  Ellen is still outside she hasn't come in yet to ask anything, I guess she assumes that I will come out when I am ready, she's right I'm not ready yet. 

laying here I staired looking up the even more damper cold dripping ceiling of this cave is gross to some degree and beautiful in another the stalactites growing downward soon they will touch the floor. I sigh thinking of it all how was the world so much different before I was born that a hundred years later it has lead to this. 

I can't figure out why I would be saving anything or anyone. Things have not gone the way it was supposed to I really thought that after killing Lorie and a few others that all of this would of been it. that this feeling of putting things right was over but I can't seem to shake that it isn't yet and the fact that the boys were holding something back only confirmed it. 

I hated this feeling in me that wanted to take off and find the sister who mated the wolf, ask her what the deal is? that should she even really still want war since now she had a better man in her life and family starting or was it something more was it me or that fact that I was a hybrid and she felt threatened by it. 

I felt like ensuring everyone about my plans and how I wished for all of us to live in harmony. I saw no reason why her mate couldn't have his own pack up north further then we were, or others in the south if it was even still safe to live there. as for witches we had no need to fight we were free to live whatever life we chose. 

The wolves really were only down to Sebastian and Luke now that I knew of so I don't see why this was even a war that still might be happening. And as far as Vampires went I think I mated all the one that could possibly take the world over so I think we are good there too. I smiled for a second and then sighed. 

AHHH!!!!! I let out a grown! this was getting ridiculous to say the less.. 

"my lady, are you alright" I hear Ellen ask from outside the cave opening. 

"yes, I'm fine" I answered just as she comes to stand before me. 

suddenly she has her sword in her hands and is stand ready to fight I look up her confused until I hear the sound from behind me.