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Ch 1+3=4 (Numerology!)

The damn sun is up!" I mumble to myself feeling overly exhausted from the night. 

I feel like I had dreamed it all Nicolae, Drogo, Sebastian, hell even Peter at some point kissing me, with the exception of the later I can still feel each one of there kisses. Modified at the thought I'm the villa whore I sink back into my pillow and hide under the covers. I kissed them as gratitude but now I have kissed them out of pure lust and need. 

Fuck! I am a whore and virgin whore!" I groan to myself 

sinking in more as I remember the words I told Sebastian, now completely going RED FACE! in embarrassment. now he knows and if I don't choose him he will be the only one that does until the night I have to tell whomever I'm with. I sigh knowing that 10 years ago I wanted it to be him and now in his arms kissing him only makes me want to all the more.  yet here I lay complete vexed over the events that have unfolded. 

I'm pissed to say the less, one because of lack of sleep thanks to people in this damn castle. and two for my own stupidity. I toss open my cover getting hot for just laying here angry. 

I kick and toss my hands and feet, AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I yell again and again a few times letting out all my anger and frustration

When my door is swung open, "Ma'am are you alright?" my damn maid bursts in asking

I sigh angerly at her "Im fine! no please I wish to be alone right now"  I command 

"Yes ma'am, I'd love to but Nicolae has instructed me to tend to you today, all day," she says bowing her head 

I leap to my knees and look at her knowing I'm not angry at her, but I am moody from no sleep and hungry. I stare at her

"ahhh! Mary, I appreciate it I do but you tell NICOLAE that today I NEED some DAMN SLEEP! or I will be no good to anyone UNLESS I FUCKING GET MORE SLEEP! Please!" I yell no mad at her but so others who have better hearing can hear me. 

"My apologies ma'am, I'll tell him" she whispers and starts to back out stopping her before she goes 

"mary, you can come back as you wish to check on me, but please know if I'm sleeping don't wake me, but I would like it if you did come back, as I'm not mad at you and may need your advice later" I whisper

she nods answering me and backs out shutting the door behind her.  

I fall back to the bed laying there closing my eyes trying to see if I can't at least get a power nap in all this. 

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Nicolae!

Sleep! she needs more sleep! yes of course mary thank you" I reply to Simoes maid.

rubbing my temple I start to feel the regret of our nightly episode of course only the part of her not sleeping. but to be this exhausted from only my visit doesn't make since I left her far before 11 pm. 

hmmm! I groan knowing the others may have stopped by as well. 

this is becoming a handful of events and unpleasure I don't need nor have time for. She needs to announce the courtship, and perhaps a schedule so we each have our day and she then can have rest. 

I sit back thinking for a bit, then using a mind link I call for all the boys. 

"DROGO, PETER, SEBASTIAN IN MY OFFICE NOW"  

"what now, its 6 am Nicolae!" I hear Drogo comment, nothing from the other two as they're more inclined to do as I ask. 

"Yes DROGO NOW!"I tell him