FORBIDDEN

Ch 104! No Regrets!

Sleep didn't come easy. I tossed and turned, each of the men taking their turns caring for me. At times Sebastian would take me in his arms sitting with me near the window to cool the heat coming off of my body. My senses on overload changing every hour or so from hot to cold. 

Nick warming me at times near the fire when I was freezing again.  My body wasn't liking the sudden loss of a mate. 

Peter and Victor took turns washing me, either with a cool shower or a warm bath my body heat was trying to regulate its self again trying to find what it was missing but nothing was working. I didn't want to eat, drink let alone breathe and the others knew it. The loss I felt for Drogo was painful. 

The others didn't know the depth of my pain but they could feel it in parts as it too affected them. 

Drogo's body had been placed in a coffin center in our large living room for all to come and pay respects.  I had gone to see him once but I couldn't take it, breaking down again just outside the doors. Victor caring for me once again taking me in his arms rushing me back to bed. Where now I laid covered in sweat and tears. 

The men resting this time none of them moved I had finally requested them all to sleep with me hoping it would make a difference but for now it didn't. my eyes open I watched the moonlight play shadows alone the ceiling. 

DROGO!! I Linked trying to find him  

the only comfort I had now was the daughter that looked just like him, slowly rising up just a little lifting myself gently in the middle of my other mates and lovers, reaching from my robe I slide it on and leaving the room. I needed to see our baby. 

I needed to see those eyes again that drew me in every time. 

I needed to feel him once more. 

"Drogo, my love why didn't you say something" I whispered questioning his method, angry with him for all of it. 

His death, killing me softly. 

The memories of him and me running through my mind, bring me to tears faster than before. I sighed taking a deep breath before entering my baby's room. Ellen sleeping near their bed as she has done so often time before. 

whipping the tears from my face I walked in quietly using the skills that Drogo taught me as my lip quivered I leaned over the crib of our baby girl and watched her sleep. Her hair, skin, and expressions looking ever more like his. I touched her gently caressing her as she slept. Sad that she would never know her father. 

my exhaustion starting to take over as I sat near her bed watching her. slowly my eyes began to close. wrapping my robe around me I lend down against the crib letting my body rest for once. I won't be any good for anyone if I didn't. 

Sleep taking over only pushed me to dream revealing the events that took place. 

We had been losing the war as per Nick, until the "boom" the wave of Power I had emitted. 

It rocked all the earth from under there feet, everyone, enemy, and friend all fell to there feet. forcing them to lay there for minutes unable to more. the moment it released all that was against me was dead. the rest standing and well. 

As if my mother had a spell on them that the moment she died it killed all of what she has set forth. She was behind it all from the start and my father just a loveless fool for her. I was his joy but he was blinded for the power she offered to rule with her. 

They would have me, create me, allow me to bond and mate with Victor who at the time was more powerful than the boys, and Sebastian wasn't even a factor in all of this. They had planned to rule both Vampire and Witches alike.  She had been shunned by the high witch calling her fake and unpure blood. My father couldn't turn her for fear of killing her, so the spell would buy them time to figure out a plan. the only loop they didn't consider was my mother's disappearance for the same amount of time I was asleep.