Brown Eyes | Alren

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- Ally -
My body hurts. My head hurts. My arms are asleep and numb. I feel horrible.

My neck has a crook in it.

I'm cold.

I'm hungry.

My throat is so dry that swallowing my own saliva won't cut it. And my mouth is so dry that I don't even think I can make my own saliva to swallow.

I open my eyes slowly, my sight a bit blurry. I have no idea how long I've slept. But I must admit that it was the best sleep I've had in a long time.

I try to turn my head but it hurts so bad I just lay there staring at the wall for a few minutes.

I gasp on air when I realize there's this plastic tube of my mouth. A ventilator? What the hell happened to me???

My fingers look pale from what I can see, and I'm sure I probably look pale and dehydrated. I feel like I have sleep paralysis because my legs won't move. And my arms are so numb I can't move them either.

So again I lay there, staring at the beige wall, reading the hospital posters that I'm sure are the same in every room. Below my jawline itches, but I can't scratch it because I can't raise my arm because theirs a gray and green thing clamped in my finger. I slowly raise my shoulder and rubbed the side of my face against it, that doing some justice but not much because the bandage is covering it.

My head itches like crazy. My stomach is in knots. I want a hot shower. I need a hot shower. I'm freezing. And I'm really hating this so-called gown with my backside all out.

I'm uncomfortable but I can't move. I haven't had sleep paralysis since I was nine, and I was hoping at that time that I never have it again. But I guess my wish didn't come true.

I just want some water. Or some tea. My throats feels like I've talked for hours.

I want a hug. I want to cuddle. I want McDonald's. I want my bed. I want so much right now that I can't get because I can't leave till tomorrow.

I want my Lauren.

I sigh deeply and decided to try moving again so I start with my head. I slowly try moving it back on the pillow and I succeed. I then try moving my legs and I succeed. So I stretched them and decided to move my arms within the action and stretched them as well to fully wake my body up.

I shift my body to turn the opposite side I woke up on and see someone laid out on the chair beside me

They were sleeping so hard I could hear how hard they were breathing.

I reach my hand out to lift their hoodie just to get their face and it's....w-wait are you serious?

It's Lauren. I pull her hoodie off her head. OH MY GOSH IT'S LAUREN. I can't believe my eyes right now.

I smile widely and watch her sleep in awe, she's so cute. She looks so warm, meanwhile I'm so cold and I really want to cuddle her. I miss her so much. I miss her touch.

Despite what's been happening between us, I still love Lauren with every inch of my heart.

I reach my hand across the railing of the bed and slowly grab hers. I pull it from behind her head and gently interlace my fingers with hers. She moves a bit but doesn't wake up. I close my eyes when I realize how warm her hands are and tighten my grip, careful not to wake her.