Brown Eyes | Alren

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The next day...

— Ally —
This might the craziest time of my life. I'm being tested by God. That has to be what's going on. My faith is being tested. My nerves, my feelings, my emotions, my heart and most of all, my love.

During all of this, I've been close to God asking that if it's meant to be, me and Lauren be together no matter happens in the end. If it's not meant to be, then I find happiness with someone else.

Well I thought Ariana was God telling me that it wasn't meant to be but then that big argument broke out last night and now I'm having second thoughts.

If I didn't know any better, Lauren defended me the whole time. I didn't necessarily agree with the way she confessed it, certain vocabulary words made it seem worse but I'm happy the truth is finally out. I could care less about Normani right now. I know it's cold to say considering she's my best friend but I ended things with Lauren because of Normani being pregnant.

I automatically assumed Lauren was the parent. Who wouldn't. Words can't express how happy I am now I know she's not and they broke up. I feel so bad feeling that way but it's the truth. I feel like it was all God's doing.

I haven't spoken to Ariana or Dinah since last night. I needed distance for awhile to sort out everything.

I was taking the elevator to Lauren penthouse. I needed to talk to her. Immediately.

As I approach her door, I pushed my hair behind my ears and fixed my shorts and blouse. I tried poking extra cute just because it's Lauren, I can't look busted even though mentally I am.

I rang the doorbell and stood there patiently. I was nervous but prepared for her possible nasty attitude towards me. I was prepared for an argument because it was bound to happen. I was ready for anything.

I started to think she wasn't gonna open the door until I heard her unlock it and turn the knob.

She had on sweatpants, a sports bra and her hair up in a ponytail. She looked lazy and tired but if I didn't talk to her now, it might not ever happen.

"Hi." I greeted and stuck my hand out. "I'm Allyson, but everyone calls me Ally."

I could tell she didn't understand what I was doing. She was so lost.

"What are you doing?" She lifted her brow.

"I'm starting over. From scratch." I answered. Me and Lauren met by kissing. We never said hi, we never asked each other's name until after. When we went on our date, we didn't talk like we see on the first date, we didn't learn a lot about each other's back ground. We never truly talked about parents, our family, where we grew up. Nothing. We never met each other the normal way and I wanted to do it that way.

She studied my face for a few seconds before she shook my hand and smiled lightly. "Hello, I'm Lauren. It's nice to meet you."

"It's nice to meet you as well." I said with a civil smile as I dropped my hand from hers. "You're beautiful."

"So are you." She said while eyeing me from head to toe. I couldn't help but blush. "Would you like to come in?"

"Sure." I nodded before walking in and exhaling deeply. "Now that we've done that, I need to talk to you."

"I need to talk to you as well." She said from behind me as I walked further into the living room.