Brown Eyes | Alren

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Later that night....

— Ally —
I put my emotions on the back burner as I entered my bed room and undressed myself. In contempt of what all had just happened hours before, I pulled my favorite dress out of the closet—the one that made me feel most beautiful—the one that hugged my body in ways that were inhumanly impossible—the dress that made me feel unstoppable.

I'm hurt and I didn't wanna end it with Lauren. God knows my mind said otherwise, but my mother has always told me to listen to my heart and that's what I did.

Being with Lauren for as long as I did was beautiful but also mentally and emotionally draining for me. It was so stressful. I'm constantly checking over my shoulder making sure no one sees us together or kissing and tells Normani. I'm constantly worrying that if me and Lauren look at each other too long will cause Normani to suspect anything. I'm always worrying about if she was gonna find out. Im always stressing about what could happen if she did before we told her.

I wasted endless tears on Lauren. I have mentally wronged myself for Lauren. I have trusted Lauren. I've cried more since I've been with Lauren than I have in the last two years. I'm an emotional person, so just imagine how l good I was doing before she stepped in the picture.

I have never argued so much with someone before Lauren. I've argued with people in my past relationships but not as much as I have with Lauren.

I'm not saying that I'm completely over Lauren because I'm not. I'm crazy about her. You can't end things with the person you're so in love with and have been in love with for a long time and lose feelings too. It takes time. If we were in another world, we'd still be together and all would be well. But this is one of those cases where it's he right person, but wrong timing. It happens.

Music is medicine. It always makes everything better. I put my phone on 'do not disturb' and took a hot shower. I could feel Lauren hands still on me and I needed her out my mind and off my body the night. I still have somewhere I need to be soon.

— Author —
The Latina looked at herself for the last time in the mirror before grabbing her pouch and flicking the light off in her bedroom before walking out to grab her keys and phone.

On her way to the door, she gazed out her ceiling-to-floor windows as she accumulated her phone and keys together. The city was so beautiful at night. The lights, the fresh night air, the big tall buildings, all of it. To Ally's despair, there perhaps could still be someone out there who was the right person for her. Her perfect match, her true love.

It was close to a 30 minute drive from Ally's condo to the studio party. When she arrived, Ariana was already outside. She found it bizarre since the party was up a flew floors and she was the host. After looking hard enough, she noticed that the young woman was actually on the phone. That's reasonable.

As she grabbed her pouch and took the keys out the engine, Ariana was hanging up. She looked over towards Ally's G-Wagon, trying to make out if the small figure was in fact Ally. She smiled in excitement and she walked over to greet her.

Ally had already made it onto the sidewalk and was pressing the button on her keys to lock her car doors when Ariana approached her.

"Heeey sexy girl!!" said Ariana with a smile as she reached to hug the Latina.

Ally smiled, "Hi beautiful. How are you?"