josh watched as tyler's eyes widened after what he had said, and josh felt bad. really, really bad.
"joshua, i-"
"listen, it's okay. i told you it was dumb, anyways."
"but-"
"i'm sorry, alright? i'll just leave you alone, i guess," josh spoke, keeping up his confident façade. he gave tyler a last look before speed walking away.
as soon as josh was sure tyler was out of sight, he pulled out his phone from his pocket and texted ryan.
josh; i just did something stupid, please don't hate me
ryan; what did you do?
josh; promise you won't get mad
ryan; josh, what'd you do..???
ryan; you didn't, y'know, hurt yourself, did you..?
josh; geez, ryan! no i didn't! i've been clean for months now!
josh; don't you trust me?
ryan; sorry, i just worry about you a lot!
ryan; anyways, what did you do then?
josh; i told tyler i like him?
ryan; i don't know what to say
josh; you know i can't control my feelings!
josh; and i really, really like him
josh; shouldn't that be all that matters?
ryan; i can't believe you, josh. i really can't.
josh; why not?
josh; you're the one dating two guys, ryan! TWO!
josh; out of the two of us, i'm the most normal one in the eyes of society!
ryan; wow.
josh; ryan, please..
failed to deliver
"fuck you, too!" josh yelled, surprising even himself.
he didn't often use profanities, but seems as though maybe the people you spend time with do put some habits into you.
"i hate everything!"
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careless // joshler
Fanfictionjosh had been watching the brown-haired boy for a while, and he was certain he wasn't okay. // tyler knew a boy with obnoxiously purple hair had been watching him, and he was getting annoyed.
