careless // joshler

20; tyler

trigger warnings; mentions of drugs and weed

tyler felt awkward.

actually, he felt beyond awkward.

while he was carrying joshua last night, he could feel his goddamn dick against his stomach, all hard.
he knew it had to be because of something he had done, but he wasn't quite sure. all he knew was that he felt awkward yet pleased at the same time.

"tyler..?"

tyler jumped up from the floor, getting greeted by joshua's extremely red eyes and messy hair. "yeah?"

"what's the time?" joshua asked, to which tyler just shrugged. "where'd you sleep?"

"on the floor," tyler replied, pointing to a single pillow on joshua's floor. "very comfortable."

"why didn't you sleep on the bed?"

"you slept on the bed."

"we could've shared."

"i don't know how much of last night you remember, but we could've not," tyler said, shaking his head to power his statement. "definitely not."

"oh?" joshua questioned, looking at tyler quizzically.

"you were hard. you had a wood. a boner. you were turned on. aroused."

tyler watched as the realization of what he had just said hit him and he went a deep shade of red before hiding his face in a pillow. or more so, smashing his head against it, seemingly trying to break his poor neck.

"i'm so sorry, oh my god," joshua mumbled, tugging on his hair. "jesus."

"it's alright," tyler said, placing his hand on joshua's back in an attempt to calm him down. "it's okay."

joshua sat back up and rubbed his eyes before looking at tyler.

"last night was fun."

"yeah, i don't think i've ever laughed as much," tyler admitted. "thanks."

"i mean, most of the thanks go to your weed," joshua laughed, and tyler joined him, "but like, where'd you get it? who sold it to you?"

"well.." tyler mumbled, quieting down. "it came from me.."

"what do you mean?"

"i sell weed."

"oh."

"and drugs."

silence.

that dreadful, disappointing, lingering silence.

"sorry," tyler croaked, looking everywhere else than joshua.

"i don't know what to say."

"it's fine."

"but you, you are not."

"no, i'm quite messed up."